Coming to my senses ....

It truly has been too long since I last blogged (officially, Aug 5th) and I apologise for my tardiness. No excuse really. I have had the time. I just haven't felt like blogging. Frankly, I still don't. But I reckon if I put it off for TOO long, I never will get back into the swing of it.

I've been able to spend time recently with people that matter most to me. My family, my friends and my loved ones. I am at the stage where I am truly rediscovering myself. No ... not rediscovering .... discovering. I know I've said this before, and though it was true at the time, I guess it's an ongoing process. Discovery is a never ending journey, and the best person to truly know, is yourself. And in this case, I've realised how resilient and strong and amazing the human spirit can be. And positive too. I think I'm allowed to affirm my strengths and give myself a pat on the back for even amazing myself with the amount of patience I've shown through what must be the most trying of times for me.

I deserve only the best in life. And I know I will have the best. I have worked hard (there's always room for more of that) and I have played hard. But at the same time, I've remained grounded and focused on what I need to be concentrating on.

The people in my life right now, I feel, are the people who will be with me for a very long time. Literally, a handful. And I will forever be grateful that they came into my life at a time when I needed them most. I have grown from their presense. This has made me mature both physically, emotionally and mentally and I'm loving it. Constant growth is what I look for and I will forever ban individuals that cannot contribute positively to my being.

I'm experiencing the finer things in life right now ..... great meals, fabulous wines, good company ..... and I'm liking what it's doing for my whole sensory system.

Visually, the world looks more beautiful. The colours are more vivid and the details are clear. I use my eyes to let people know I listen. My eyes give away everything that's happening within. And therefore the saying "the eyes are the windows to the soul" is something I can relate to. And those that really know ME, know that about me.

Auditorily, music has become very happy and reminds me of good times. The sounds of nature also ring gorgeously in my head. I use my ears to listen as my son counts from one to ten or as he tries to recite his ABCs. I listen as my daughter asks one of her all-important questions. Or calls out to me in the middle of the night because of a nightmare that's scared her.

As for the scents that surround me, the air seems a little more crisp and I'm sensitive to the smell of the weather ... so much so that I can smell the rain coming. I take a deep breath when I wear one of my favourite perfumes. For me, Annick Gouttal's Grand Amour is an intoxicating aroma. One that I can't live without. I smell food, and wine, and babies, and perfumes of women going by and colognes on men that brush past me. I breathe in the atmosphere. This sense for me is so important because it's so closely related to my all-time favourite sense, taste, which you'll read about in a bit.

As for the sense of touch, I'm experiencing new sensors in my fingertips. Velvet seems smoother than I remember, leather manlier, rocks rougher and sand ..... well, depends on where you find it. =)

The sense of touch ... one of the senses that I treasure and appreciate the most. It gives me the chance to touch the cheeks of my children, and feel how smooth and soft and innocent they are. For they have yet to go through life the way I have. And their skin that has yet been made to weather any tough storms.

It gives me the opportunity to gently hold the hand of the person I love. Gently, yet just firmly and knowingly enough to let them know that I'm here. And by stroking their hand, they feel how much I care. I use my fingers to run through their hair. I use my hands to massage them after a long day. I ever so innocently touch an arm or a thigh when I need them to know that I'm listening, or that they're funny or appreciated.

It tells me when my latte's too hot or that someone is running a temperature. It allows me to feel cold during the cooler months and warm when I'm held. It alerts me when I've been cut and doesn't let me forget the pain that follows.

And then there's the all time favourite sense of all ......

The sense of taste.

The one sense that is a gastronomic adventure when it comes to food and a euphoric journey when it comes to love. It pleasures my palette and allows me to sip my red wine. It allows me to taste the salt in the tears that flow down my cheeks. It gives me the thrill of indulging in fine food. And the satisfaction of appreciating a really tender kiss.

I'd actually be foolish to say that I have, or can choose, a favourite out of all the five senses. Each one of them is important and each one of them as matured along with me. Each one of them works concurrently with the other four and thus, I need them all and thank god I can cherish them.

Right then .... that's as much as will come out of this head today ...... I'm gonna fill the rest of my night up with mundane surfing and FaceBooking. Have a great week ahead. And make LOTSA MULA!!!
xxx

Inspirational Words

'It is not the critic who counts;

not the man who points out how the strong man stumbles,

or where the doer of deeds could have done them better.

The credit belongs to the man who is actually in the arena,

whose face is marred by dust and sweat and blood,

who strives valiantly; who errs and comes short again and again;

because there is not effort without error and shortcomings;

but who does actually strive to do the deed;

who knows the great enthusiasm, the great devotion,

who spends himself in a worthy cause,

who at the best knows in the end the triumph of high achievement and who at the worst, if he fails, at least he fails while daring greatly.

So that his place shall never be with those cold and timid souls who know neither victory nor defeat.'

Theodore Roosevelt Jr. 27th October 1858 - 6th January 1919

26th President of The United States of America.

And the results ....

Your Kissing Technique Is: Perfect

Your kissing technique is amazing - and you know it. You have the confidence to make the first move. And you always seem to know what kissing style is going to work best. Sometimes you're passionate, sometimes you're a tease. And you're always amazing!

Are You a Good Kisser?

My Children ...

For once in my life
I have someone who needs me
Someone I've needed so long
For once unafraid
I can go where life leads me
And somehow I know I'll be strong

For once I can touch
What my heart used to dream of
Long before I knew
Someone warm like you
Could make my dreams come true

For once in my life
I won't let sorrow hurt me
Not like it's hurt me before, oh
For once I've got someone
I know won't desert me
'Cause I'm not alone anymore

For once I can say
This is mine, you can't take it
As long as I've got love I know I can make it
For once in my life
I've got someone who needs me

It's all about ME

Seems like it's been FOREVER since I last blogged.

I've been busy trying to sort my life out and those darned, bloody curve balls seem to be flying in my direction ALL the time!! They're like guided-missiles sent to hunt me down and try to blow me out of existance. You know what I say to these individuals that are trying to ruin me???? Keep it coming, sweet thing. You'll soon realise how firmly I have my feet planted on the ground and how tightly my head is screwed on. In the face of adversity, I say, "F@ck You." Ain't nothing gonna get me down and ain't nothing gonna make me stray from the most vital fact of my life .... that who I am is who I am and my children complete me.

Things can only get BETTER ....

It is my prerogative to be happy and to love.
It is my birthright to make those around me happy and feel loved.
I answer to no-one but my children when I hear their cries for help.

Who hears me when I cry?
Who will come to my rescue when I need support?
Who will stand by me in my darkest hours?
Who will be my pillar of strength?
Who will be my weakness?
Who will say "how high" if I say "jump"?

The Answer: ME

I find it hard to hate, or detest, anything or anyone. Then why do I seem to feel like I'm being pushed it that direction? Why do people try their best to see how far they can go when it comes to making my life a living hell?

Well, to them I say, keep pushing and keep trying. I now know that I'm stronger than I ever realised. And I'm getting stronger by the day. Maybe this is a test that God has decided to put me to. A test to see if I can overcome any obstacle.

I shall not wallow in self-pity. I shall not seek support. I shall lead my life the best way I know how and keep discovering this hidden strength I have within me. I shall remain resilient to all sort of adversity.

Watch and learn folks. For if there were no mistakes to learn from, no experiences to grow from, and no tests to pass ..... we would never grow as people. Rather I would never grow as an individual. Screw how the rest of the world handles it.

I am ME.
I will remain ME.
And I belong to ME.

And you know what? With all that's going on in my life, at least you can't say I lead a BORING one. It is anything but!!

Have a good Sunday and enjoy the F1 AND the Charity Shield!!
xxx

Let go of your worries
and be completely clear-hearted,
like the face of a mirror
that contains no images.
If you want a clear mirror,
behold yourself
and see the shameless truth,
which the mirror reflects.
If metal can be polished
to a mirror-like finish,
what polishing might the mirror
of the heart require?
Between the mirror and the heart
is this single difference:
the heart conceals secrets,
while the mirror does not.
The Divani Shamsi Tabriz, XIII

My week ...

Gosh it's been a SUPER long week of networking, socialising and schmoozing. For four days in a row, I've been out and about in the city and with the amount of old and new people I've run into, I reckon I must have handed out at least 50 name cards! Started on Wednesday evening at No5 for a plastic dog's birthday (don't ask) and ended last night at Zouk, where Groove Armada was playing. It was great!!

It's been a while since I've been to Zouk and though it's pretty much the same, a few changes have been made. Like I think they've done REALLY well with the smoking areas. They were sponsored by Phillip Morris and look really chic with bright red troughs, filled with black stones, that act as massive ashtrays. And because both areas are covered open-air decks, it's much more pleasant than the indoor ones I've been to, like in MOS or Barfly. Zouk's always had creativity when it comes to use of space and after all these years, it doesn't look like it's about to wane anytime soon.

I must give a shout-out to my great friend Lawrence though. He's been my confidante and a true gentleman and I always have such a good time with him. Thanks for being there for me hon. You're a true gem of a person. One in 10 million.

On that lovely note ... I am gonna crash .... been a loooooong four days. You have a great start to the brand new week ahead. Be back soon ok??
xxx

Friendship

• Trouble is part of your life and if you don't share it, you don't give the person who loves you a chance to love you enough.

• No one can go back and make a brand new start. Anyone can start from now and make a brand new ending.

• Everyone hears what you say. Friends listen to what you have to say. Best friends hear what you don't say.

• When you feel down because you didn't get what you want, sit tight and try to be happy, because God has thought of something better to give you.

• Life without friends is death without witnesses.

• Depth of friendship does not depend on length of acquiantance.

• The language of friendship is not words but meanings

• Friendship is the only cement that will ever hold the world together.

• A friend is someone who reaches for your hand and touches your heart.

• You never really know someone until you've been their friend.

What You Believe VS What You Know

The idea of BELIEF implies a residue of doubt,
but KNOWING leaves no trace of SKEPTICISM.
It means CERTAINTY.
Complete CONVICTION.

In your GUT.

In your HEART.

In your SOUL.

Then .... and Now.

Was sitting down the other day thinking about how much has changed when it comes to the dating/relationship game. "Game" being a metaphor because I take this topic very seriously. So I came up with a list of "Old Vs New School" and here it is.

• OLD: He's serious when he asks you out.
• NEW: You're not the only girl he's checking out.

(Too true. Many guys I know have ... for want of a better term .... snuggle buddies. And if the men can do it ... so can the girls. Present company not included though. Call me traditional but I'm a one-man woman.)

• OLD: Call him your boyfriend after you've held hands/kissed.
• NEW: Don't assume anything until it's been discussed.

(Yes. Yes. Yes. Clear the air before you start making assumptions. Too many relationships break down because the goals and expectations are not laid out in the beginning. And too many people like to assume. You know what it stands for right??? Break the word down and it spells "ass", "u", "me". Gettit??)

• OLD: A guy should hit on a girl first.
• NEW: Go ahead, make the first move.

(I totally advocate women making their intentions known. As I always say .... if you want something, ask. Deep breath now .... and just take the plunge.)

• OLD: Get out of car, walk up driveway (or take lift in most cases here), ring doorbell and ask girl's parents permission to take her out.
• NEW: Send an SMS to girl .... "I'm outside/downstairs. Hurry the F#ck Up" ... let your fingers, literally, do the walking.

(Thank you, Sherman ... the Sherminator. P/S: Again, I'll go back to being traditional and say that it's always nice to receive and be received at the door. And please, no breaking up/getting together over SMS. Gawd ... whatever happened to talking face-to-face??? Guys ... BE A MAN!!)

• OLD: He brings home the bacon.
• NEW: He loves your financial independence ... sort of.

(Financial independence is KEY for women nowadays. Have your own little stash of cash that you can dig into for your personal pleasures. And ladies, offer to foot that meal bill once in a while. He'll be pleasantly surprised. Trust me.)

• OLD: Hands off the younger man.
• NEW: Your age doesn't matter.

(I have no issues whatsoever with an age gap. As long as you're in sync and you both have respect and trust going for each other, there can be no better foundation to a great relationship. PLUS, my ALL time favourite .... communication.)

• OLD: Take what you can get.
• NEW: What you can/will get is NEVER enough.

(Thanks to Lawrence for the above entry! It all started with an incident he witnessed at a restaurant. At the table next to him, a couple sat. During the course of the meal, the gentleman got nervously down on one knee, whipped out a box, opened it up and popped the question. To his dismay, all the girl could say was: "WAH! So small????" And for the rest of the evening, the very demoralised male party sat and watched his supposed "fiancee" snap pics of the rock (according to Lawrence, it was at least 1.5 carats) and MMS them to her girlfriends for their opinion!!! Stupid. I personally would be happy to accept anything the guy can afford and thank him for his efforts. Whatever happened to "It's the thought that counts"???)

• OLD: Till death do us part.
• NEW: Stranded when you fart.

(Lawrence and I came up with this one! We both have/had marriage issues. Whatever happened to living/putting up with one's quirks, habits and idiosyncrasies??? Enough said.)

Now .... if you have any more that you can think of, when it comes to comparing "what was" to "what is", please do not hestitate to make a contribution and I will gladly post it up.

Have a great Sunday ahead!!!

xxxx

The Road Goes Ever On

"The Road goes ever on and on
Down from the door where it began.
Now far ahead the Road has gone,
And I must follow, if I can,
Pursuing it with eager feet,
Until it joins some larger way
Where many paths and errands meet.
And whither then? I cannot say."

- J R R Tolkien -

You know you were a child of the 80s ....

• If you still can't believe that Milli Vanilli was deceiving you all that time (Duh ...)

• If you still carry your boom box on your shoulder (it's much lighter now that I have an i-pod)

• If you think David Hasselhoff was awesome in Knight Rider but sucked in "Boob Watch." (Where's KITT???)

• Knickers and leg warmers were cool (aren't they making a comeback??)

• If you remember Bruce Willis from Moonlighting, not Die Hard (Just watched 4.0 so ..... impossible)

• You want to be "Where Everybody Knows Your Name" (still do ..)

• You know who played Magnum P.I (Yes, Tom Selleck ... we share the same birthday!)

• One Phrase, "The Plane, The Plane" (I wanna LIVE on Fantasy Island!)

• If your idea of hi-tech toys is still the heat-sensitive color-changing sticker on Transformers (hey ... pretty hi-tech for it's time don't cha think?)

• You ever wanted to learn to play "Stairway to Heaven" on the guitar and choreographed "DancingQueen" by yourself in your room. (Shite ... how'd u know??)

• You still wear your "Members Only" jacket. (because only "members" are allowed "in")

• You still have a couple of those barettes made of woven ribbons. (hell yeah!)

• You had snap bracelets (never could deal with clasps)

• You remember when Pee-Wee wasn't a pervert. (ewwwwwwwwww Mr Herman)

• You still think Donkey Kong can beat Mario up (definately!! Kong is King!)

• If you still have your scratch-n-sniff sticker collection (except u can scratch but can't sniff anymore)

• If you ever used Lee Press-On Nails (quicker than a manicure anyday)

• If you wear jelly shoes (thank god I never got into this ... today's version: CROCS. Eww ... )

• If you remember when you heard that drinking soda and eating Pop Rocks would make your stomach explode (I still believe that!! But now I drink Pop Rocks w a shot of Vodka!!)

• You're still hoping for a New Kids on the Block reunion tour (yes please ... with Mark Wahlberg fronting it in his Calvins)

• You still argue over who was better: Tiffany or Debbie Gibson (Jury's still out ...)

Skeletons, Cobwebs and the like ....

EVERYONE has skeletons in their closets right? EVERYONE's got something to hide, yes? So why is it, that when you decide to come clean (whether it's taken two weeks or two years), people behave sooooooooo virtuous????

I believe in "what they don't know won't kill 'em" (to a certain extent) ... but if I live by that rule, personally, it would play on my conscience and that would just destroy me internally. And I'm a terrible liar. So why even beat around the bush and hide the past/present/future??? Be it terribly colourful and complicated, I believe that the truth reigns and no matter how hard you try to hide something for the sake of protecting someone's interests or feelings .... it will always reveal itself.

I am an honest person by any standard and I believe those that know me well will say the same. Sure I've lied. But as I go into this new stage of my life .... there is no place or space for lying or playing games. What you see IS what you get. What you see IS genuine. What I am IS here. If you like it STAY ... if you don't, GO. I can't make the decision for you. You are your own person and I am mine. Hopefully, together, we'll do well.

And so as I contemplate life and all it's trials and tribulations, I hope and pray that my past doesn't reflect on the kind of person I am today. I've made sooooooo many mistakes. And I have sooooo many regrets. But I'd like to start over. And I'd like you to join me on this journey of rediscovering myself and renewing faith.

Are you ready for the ride of your life???

Just one of those days again ..... sitting here in front of my laptop and my mind is blank. So I shall just write whatever comes into my head.

It's just past midnight after a big day that's going to go down in the history books for sure. Yesterday was 070707. Happens only once every century ... (duh, just like 010101 and 020202 ... and next year, 080808 ... you get the picture). LIVE Earth is currently being broadcast across the world to more than a kazillion people (actually ONLY 2 billion). More accurately though, are the 150+ artistes that are putting their time in for "the concerts for a climate in crisis". Lemme see if I can remember the 8 cities involved .... New Jersey, Tokyo, Shanghai, Hamburg, Johannesburg, Sydney, Rio de Janeiro and ..... eeeek .... I spoke about this for TWO hours this morning on radio!! What's the last city????? Oh dear .... hmmm .... ok, I'm gonna cheat now (at least I'm honest and don't pretend to know) and check online ....

GOT IT!!!! How could I forget the one place I lived in for almost TWO years????? LoNdOn!!!!

This is amazing effort put together by ex-US Vice President Al Gore and Kevin Wall (same guy who produced Live 8 last year to aid Africa) to hold a 24-hour concert across 7 continents to trigger a global movement to solve climate crisis. I don't know how effective it'll be but it is a step in the right, positive direction.

Rio almost didn't make the list up until 2 days before the event. Security was an issue. But they managed to pull it together and it is the only city out of the 8, that will be free and open to the public.

It's time to make the world sit up and take notice of the kind of damage that we are inflicting on Mother Nature. She's going through a tough time. The increase in the amount of smokers (I'm guilty of being a part of these statistics), the way we drive around town emitting all sorts of pollutants into the environment (innocent), the way flying now has been made so affordable, it's almost like taking a taxi (semi-guilty). To top that, the way we attend concerts where so much energy and electricity and money is required, that a few small third-world nations could survive for a year ... sigh ...

I do my part for the Earth. I don't take plastic bags from supermarkets, I recycle as much as I possibly can, I use the MRT (cars here are just too obscenely expensive anyway), and I try to instill these practices into my children daily. Way more than what a lot of people are doing I guess. It's a step in the right direction. Yes?

Geez ... I've got such a mental block right now it's just not funny.

OK. I'm gonna be watching Transformers AGAIN tomorrow. It'll be the 2nd time this week. I thought it was absolutely AMAZING. Brings me back to my childhood big time. And I can't wait to relive those memories again. This time ... in Digital!!!!!!!!!!!

Ok .... I'm done for now. This ain't going anywhere and it's actually painful to think. I should stop. Maybe I'll come back. Maybe I won't. Whatever I decide to do, I hope you have a great Sunday ahead ..... maybe I'll see you at the movies!!

xxxx

Blah Blah Blah ...

I've realised that the biggest pasttime Singaporeans have is to gossip. Not eat. Not shop. But G-O-S-S-I-P.

The World is Just Too Small

And it pisses me off big time. I mean, is there nothing better and more productive one can do with their time than to speak behind someone else's back????? Our sunny little island is small enough as it is ... and everyone is connected (not by 6-degrees of seperation, but by ONE) .... and to add to that .... bloody people with too much time on their hands choose to shoot their mouths of about friends, family, loved ones, celebrities and even damn strangers!!!!

Leave Us Alone

Who are you to judge if you don't know??? Who are you to say anything about how one person lives their life?? I believe that people do things for a reason. And gossiping is just not something that should become a habit.

Watch Your Step ....

In the workplace, they call it water-cooler talk. That's just a bloody glamourised term for blatant bad-mouthing. And the repercussions can be disastrous let me tell you. And oh-so-painful for the victim. Once you start gossiping, and because most of it are lies, you'll have to constantly watch your back to make sure that the "gossipee" isn't in your vicinity. And then there's the tiresome task of always making sure that each two sentences are related. Isn't that just mentally draining?? Trying to keep up with your own bullshit? Don't we all already have enough problems, than to have to worry about what people are saying about us? Isn't there enough anguish, grief and pain in this world??????

What Guilty Conscience?

It used to bug me whenever I heard "rumours" about me (I do ALL the time, by the way). But now, I just let it slide. Who gives a shit?? Certainly not me because I know what I have and have not done. I've got a conscience you know? Unlike all these bloody back-stabbing loose-mouths that don't. And as long as I know who I am, what I am, and what I'm capable of doing and who my firends really are ... I can sleep peacefully. I let people feel the weight of who I am .... and then I let them deal with it. If they can't manage the depth and sincerity of my being ... then too friggin' bad. I let my virtues speak for themselves. I don't have to validate myself to anyone, nor do I need anyone to validate me.

There's Always a Choice

How about the syndrome I like to call E.B.??? Elementary Behaviour. This is when Person A is no longer friends with Person B, and so Person C (and everyone else) isn't allowed to communicate or be in the company of said Person B!!!!!! WTF?? Doesn't that just scream kindergarten tactics???? Why don't you let everyone else judge for themselves instead of trying the make the judgement/choice for them??? I feel that good judgement comes from bad experiences. And bad experiences stem from bad judgement. So tread slowly ....

Give Friendship a Chance

Doesn't everyone deserve the chance to get to know someone before deciding whether they'd like to take them on as a friend, lover, acquaintance or enemy??? Besides, Person B and C have every right to make their own conclusions ... and this may lead to the friendship/partnership of a lifetime. Screw Person A. They're just gonna live the rest of their lives lonely ... AND alone.

And so .... in conclusion .... M.Y.O.B. And to those of you who I consider ignormamus', this crystal-clearly means .... Mind Your Own Business.

Life's too darn short to be trying to figure out why everyone else doesn't live their lives like yours. Live your own damn life. Make your own choices. Learn to be happy with yourself. And learn to SHUT UP once in a while.

Remember, you can't possibly be learning anything if your mouth is moving.

xxxx

Wise Words to Live by ....

• Love deeply and passionately ... you might get hurt but it's the only way to live life completely
• I am still an individual when I am with someone
• I am free to go, so I stay
• Friends may come and go, but enemies accumulate
• Patience is never more important ... than when you're on the verge of losing it
• Don't judge people by their relatives
• The most important relationship in my life is the one I have with myself
• Look at how far you've come, not at how far you still have to go
• Distance clarifies everything
• Once a year, go someplace you've never been before
• Open your arms to change, but don't let go of your values
• Negative thoughts are a precious waste of energy
• Don't be afraid of adversity - you may well be surprised by what you can do
• No one is good at everything, but everyone is good at something
• Let your virtues speak for themselves
• Go easy on yourself - you can only take so much
• The other line always moves faster, until you join it
• Every moment in time, contains the seed of happiness
• Fear always springs from ignorance

Imagination is stronger than knowledge

Dreams are more powerful than facts

And hope can triumph over experience

I am STRONG. I am POWERFUL. And I will TRIUMPH.

xxx

My Love for the Silver Screen ...

I don't think I've watched soooooo many movies in such a short span of time before ..... well, at least not for as long as I can remember. It's got a lot to do with the fact that there have been so many great flicks on recently. All thanks to the mid-year holidays. Next spurt will probably be in September.

So far, I've seen Spiderman 3, Shrek 3, Ocean's 13, Die Hard 4.0, Transformers and .... there was one more ... I'm sure of it ... I counted 6 earlier off the top of my head ..... what was it???? Ughhhhhhh ... oh yes .... Fantastic 4: The Rise of the Silver Surfer. Ahhhhhh .... save for Transformers, all the rest are sequels. And I truly enjoyed all of them except for Shrek. Please don't come back with part 4 .... please. It'll just be overkill. The one that's impressed me the most has got to be Transformers!!! So much so that I'm gonna watch it AGAIN. And most people I know are gonna do the same!! This one is surely gonna set a new record in terms of box office takings. Mark my word.

I do wanna watch Disturbia. Looks like it's gonna be good. We'll see. Shia LeBouf is doing well. Three blockbuster movies in a year. Busy boy. AND he'll be in Indiana Jones 4!!! I remember when he was just a child actor (still is at just 19) on Disney Channel's Even Stevens.

And then there's that Quentin Tarantino one ... Death Proof. His movies are always good. Always dark. And movies to look out for ..... The Simpsons, Smurfs, The Golden Compass (this one will be fabulous with Kidman, Green & Craig).

Well, that's it for me. Getting a little bit of a headache going right now. I feel I'm gonna be coming down with something. BIG TIME. Nooooooooooooo .... according to The Law of Attraction .... I am not going to get sick. I will be well. I've been in very good health for a very long time and I wish this to continue. And it will.

Till I blog again .... have a good week ahead.
xxx

June 30th 2007

Today is a big day of sorts for us here in Singapore. A little red dot on the global map, by any standards. It's the last day of the middle of the month. I can't believe how this year has just flown by. For me, it's been bitter sweet. Sweet because of all the travelling I've been doing. It's offered some respite from what's been going on. Bitter, well, because it just is. Only my closest friends know the kind of turmoil my life is in right now. But due to the support I've been getting all around, I'm good.

Back to today. This day marks the official closing ceremony of the National Stadium. A venue that's been a part of Singapore, and the lives of Singaporeans, for 34 years. Though I can't readily admit she's made that big of an impact on my life, the demolishing of it will be sad. She's been so iconic and I will miss just seeing her. She's going to be making way for a new Sports Hub and I don't doubt it'll be bigger and better, but I do reckon it might be a visual eye-sore.

Today also marks the last day that we'll be able to smoke in clubs and bars (a 10% designated smoking area where drinks/food can't be served, doesn't count and just won't work). So I'm sure all the outlets in Clarke Quay, Boat Quay (maybe), Mohd Sultan (also maybe), Zouk, St James and the rest of the usual suspects, will be absolutely packed. At the stroke of midnight, it'll be smokes out.

Also at the stroke of midnight, will be when the GST hike will happen. Everything's gonna go up by 7%. Cash registers will be ringing off the hook just before that, as everyone gets their drink orders in! 7% ain't that bad if you ask me.

Speaking of money, I hear that the GSS is already in some bank accounts, so if you've yet to check your balance, go do it now. And if you've yet to apply for it via your ATM, go do it NOW. Before midnight that is. And once you receive the money from the government, go right back out and give it back. Hmmmmmm .... clever.

Enjoy your day out today, whatever you may be doing ... I'm gonna finish off my radio shift, then go get this body into better shape. Have a good one!!!

xxxx

It's been a good day ...

I'm in an excellent mood today!! Had a fabulous session at the gym and am now feeling super fit ... though my lack of stamina says something else altogether!!! Must be the cigarettes .... ya think????

I just happen to be in really good spirits. Nothing in particular spurred this emotion on. Maybe it is the fact that I'm really getting into my latest read, The Law of Attraction. It's really made my outlook on life extremely positive and that's just what I need at this juncture. Whenever I'm on the move, my book is in hand, my head's buried in it and Buddha Bar is playing in my ears (great reading music by the way ... so unobtrusive and totally feel good ... I LOVE i-pods!!).

I've got a whole new outlook on life. One where nothing's gonna get me down. C'mon, I dare a curve-ball to be thrown at me right now. I'll just let it fly right past me and be on my merry way. If I face an obstacle, I'll climb over it, knowing that whatever is waiting on the other side for me, will never be too tough for me to handle.

Because I am strong. And my strength manifests from my positive thoughts and attitude. And because of this, what used to be my weaknesses are fast fading into oblivion.

And I am independent. I don't need anyone to validate me or my existence. i can carry my own and look after myself and my loved ones.

I am patient. And because it's such a great virtue to possess, I make sure that it grows with me and every passing minute. And along with it, my tolerance for things that used to rile me. I can't control what people do or say. Nor can I control their thoughts or actions. What I can control is the type of people I surround myself with. And my thoughts and actions. And my choices. And I choose those that care for me. And I choose individuals who inspire, motivate and encourage me.

I am me. And because I'm slowly rediscovering myself and peeling back all the layers of insecurities and negativity, I realise that I have a lot to offer the world. And give back to those who have stood by me, through thick and thin.

At the same time, I'm also putting up my walls. My defence mechanism has kicked in. And with this, I will prevent myself from being drawn in to the lives of people who will eventually disappoint. I refuse to immerse myself into situations I'm unsure off. I'll dip my foot in, to check the temperature first.

And although I hold great expectations of myself (nothing is beyond my reach), I will not have expectations of others. And what they may promise for the future, near or far. Expectations unfulfilled = disappointment through and through.

I shall not count my chickens before they hatch but I will just hope that when they do eventually crack through those shells, the revelations will be positive.

I hope your day was as good as mine ... but if it hasn't been .... remember:

After the storm, the sun must surely shine. And that no matter how bad things may seem to be, know that the problems you face can be solved with great attitude and a sunny outlook on life's great offerings. And count all your blessings. Things can only get better.

xxx

MY TOP FOUR HOTTIE PICKS ... for now ....

HOTTIE #1

ANDY BALDWIN

My TOP pick has to be ANDY BALDWIN. Or to be more precise .... Lieutenant Andrew James Baldwin, M.D., Naval Officer, triathlete and physician!!! He is best known as "the" Bachelor on the tenth season of the American reality show. And though this guy seems to have found his bride (don't worry, I don't think it'll last), he's just my top pick cos this guy does it ALL!!! He's got a heart of gold with all the volunteer medical work he does, goes around setting funds for worthy causes, runs, swims AND bikes for his triathlons AND did I mention that he's GORGEOUS????? And who can resist a man in uniform???? And only 30 years old ..... sigh ... why couldn't I have been born in another place and time???? Because he's soooooooooooo HOT ... I had to add two pictures. Enjoy ladies .. and stop drooling over that keyboard. ;)

HOTTIE #2

MARCUS SCHENKENBERG

Marcus Schenkenberg ..... oh Marcus ... I've been in love with the "idea" of this hottie from the moment he stepped foot into the modelling world. He's the world's FIRST male Supermodel and is the highest paid per-year male model ... till today!!!! He's soooooo drooooool worthy *slurp*. Though his taste in women leaves much to be desired ... he had a live-in relationship with Pamela Anderson. Guess that's why he appeared on some episodes of V.I.P....... *cringe* he's still hot though .... but this one will just have to be admired from afar .... sigh .... and in my wettest dreams .....

HOTTIE #3

AMI JAMES

If I'm EVER in Miami ... here's the dude that will lay his hands on me .... Ami, ink me pleeeeease! And with a body like that, the tattoos look all the better. But watch it ladies, this Ex-Israeli Special Forces dude has already been married FIVE times!!! And he's only 35! Player?? Or just unlucky in love??

HOTTIE #4
OLIVIER MARTINEZ
The "other man" in "Unfaithful" with Diane Lane and Richard Gere. Also up until recently, long-time boyfriend of Kylie Minougue and is apparently dating Penelope Cruz now. Must admit, the boy has taste. Born 1966, he's of Spanish/French descent (hmmmm .... nice .... voulez vous coucher avec moi ce soir??)

Something to think about

Make this the time to be seen .... and heard.

It's time to unbundle my/your body and strip down to essentials.
It's time to show more skin than usual but try to stay this side of shocking.
It's time to exert my/yourself to the edge of feeling breathless but not gasping.
And it's time to find the delicate balance between feeling full and feeling hungry.

It's time to explore and expand my/your comfort levels:

• The mind automatically transforms words into images. If I/you say, "I don't want to be fat.", my/your mind will conjure up mental images of a fat person, which reinforces the very thing we're trying to avoid. The Law of Attraction states that whether my/your thoughts are positive or negative, thinking about them lends power, and with power, the thought becomes reality. Start by erasing THREE negative self-images that I/you may have. Replace them with positive mental pictures. Say this with me .... "I can", "I will", "I must" and "I want".

• Renew my/your body by shaking up routines and opening up to new experiences. When I/you get busy, we rely on habits - such as wearing the same clothes, eating the same food, taking the same route to work, hanging out at the same places - this is so I/you can save time and thought. How about reinvigorting ourselves by trying something different? Extend my/your mind-set and take a bigger risk.

• Whether it's changing your job (do it for the passion, not the money), diving into love (why regret the past? don't be afraid to what the future holds), or taking up a new hobby (sky-diving anyone?) .... change is most of the time good and can make a very positive effect on your life. Mundane routines never did anyone any good ... unless you're comfortable with mundane. Remember .... familiarity breeds contempt.

Expect the unexpected. Hope for the best but be prepared for the worst. And may you lead an exciting, productive and fulfilled life ahead.

xxx

Mixing Alcohol

This is SUPER funny!!! I finally found out who the comedian is behind a sound clip on my phone! And thanks to H in Dubai, now about 50 of my friends have this on their phones too .... ahhhh ... gotta love bluetooth!!

To all my friends who LOVE alcohol .... you'll totally be able to relate to this! Enjoy ... presenting .... JIM BREUER!!!!

My TOP 11

Read my tattooed friend's blog recently and he put up his list of Top 10 favourite songs. It's inspired me to do the same!! Though when I wrote my list .... I ended up with 13. And since "13" is considered an unlucky number by some (I'm not superstitious ... well, maybe sometimes), and "13" is by far NOT Top 10, I had to remove a couple from the list ... and so I've ended up with 11. So here's my pick of TOP ELEVEN favourite songs of ALL time. Noel, looks like we only have ONE song in common ;) better that, than NONE I guess .....

1. Bed of Roses - Bon Jovi (1993)
2. Through the Barricades - Spandau Ballet (1986)
3. Sexual Healing - Marvin Gaye (1982)
4. Kingston Town - UB40 (1990)
5. I've got you Under my Skin -Frank Sinatra/Bono (1993)
6. Flying Without Wings- Westlife (1999)
7. November Rain - Guns n Roses (1992)
8. Punjab - Karunesh (2003 ... this song calms me)
9. Don't Cry - Guns n Roses (1991)
10. Just the Way you Are - Billy Joel (1977)
11. Time to Make you Mine - Lisa Stansfield (1992 .... and SEXY as hell)

None of the songs above are in any particular order of favouritism.

I'm looking at them now, and all but ONE come from the past millenium!!! Hmmm ... does this mean I'm getting old(er)?? Doesn't matter.

With age, comes maturity. And with experience, comes knowledge. And I'm very comfortable with myself. WAY more so than I was, say 10 years ago.

I'm focused.

I know what I want.

I ask for it when I want it.

And above all, I know me.

And that's more than enough.

My word of the month ....

re·cip·ro·cate [ri-sip-ruh-keyt] verb, -cat·ed, -cat·ing.
–verb (used with object)

1. to give, feel, etc., in return.
2. to give and receive reciprocally; interchange: to reciprocate favors.
3. to cause to move alternately backward and forward.
–verb (used without object)
4. to make a return, as for something given.
5. to make interchange.
6. to be correspondent.
7. to move alternately backward and forward.

Why don't people get that??? You treat people the way you want, or would like, to be treated right?? So why is it that people find it so hard to reciprocate??? Is it a dying art???

Whether it's returning a phone call, a favour, an emotion, an act of kindness .... remember that it goes a long way. Don't get me wrong though. I don't do things for others expecting anything in return .. there's a difference. Simple acts often go unnoticed. But I believe that if someone makes an effort to help you, or get your attention, or support you, you should in some way, any way, show your appreciation OR at least, respond to the action.

Reciprocate.

For every action, there's an equal but opposite reaction right? Now although Newton was actually referring to the motion of physical objects, I believe that this can be interpreted differently. For every action, there should be some reaction from the opposite party.

Reciprocatory.

If anything else, it boils down to common courtesy. I'm not saying that you should entertain anyone that annoys you or anyone that you dislike, but with friends, family, loved ones, spouses, partners .... you should have the decency to at least react to their actions.

Reciprocating.

Common courtesy. Common decency. Common sense. Don't let things go unnoticed too often. Because when you finally realise that you should start taking notice of the individual/s that tried so hard to help/support you or get your attention ... you'll look around, and that person will no longer be standing by your side. It'll be a case of too little, too late.

Reciprocation.

And you know how short life is yes???? Live for the moment. And live without regrets. Or at least help yourself live with less anguish.

Reciprocate. Reply. Repay. Respond. Retaliate. Return. Requite.

Whichever way you say it .... it all means the same.

I want .....

I wrote this for someone SUPER special on the 19th of March ....

I want to be right by your side .....
I want to be right there for you.
I want you to be the last thing I see
before I close my eyes each night.
And the first thing I see
when I open them.

I want to be your shoulder to cry on
And your pillar to depend on.
I want you to be my strength
And have you know you are my weakness.

I long for your tender touch
For those lips that know me
For those eyes that say they need me
And for those hands that say they want me

I want to shorten this distance between us
And build an emotional bridge that will bind us
And have you know that I'm here
Whenever, however and wherever you need me.

i want .....

FREEDOM

At the city gate and by your fireside
I have seen you prostrate yourself and worship your own freedom,
Even as slaves humble themselves before a tyrant and praise him though he slays them.

Ay, in the grove of the temple and in the shadow of the citadel
I have seen the freest among you wear their freedom as a yoke and a handcuff.

And my heart bled within me;
for you can only be free when even the desire of seeking freedom
becomes a harness to you,
and when you cease to speak of freedom as a goal and a fulfillment.

You shall be free indeed when your days are not without a care
nor your nights without a want and a grief,
But rather when these things girdle your life
and yet you rise above them naked and unbound.

And how shall you rise beyond your days and nights
unless you break the chains which you at the dawn of your understanding
have fastened around your noon hour?

In truth that which you call freedom
is the strongest of these chains,
though its links glitter in the sun and dazzle the eyes.

And what is it but fragments of your own self
you would discard that you may become free?
If it is an unjust law you would abolish,
that law was written with your own hand upon your own forehead.

You cannot erase it by burning your law books
nor by washing the foreheads of your judges,
though you pour the sea upon them.

And if it is a despot you would dethrone,
see first that his throne erected within you is destroyed.

For how can a tyrant rule the free and the proud,
but for a tyranny in their own freedom
and a shame in their won pride?

And if it is a care you would cast off,
that care has been chosen by you rather than imposed upon you.

And if it is a fear you would dispel,
the seat of that fear is in your heart
and not in the hand of the feared.

Verily all things move within your being in constant half embrace,
the desired and the dreaded,
the repugnant and the cherished,
the pursued and that which you would escape.

These things move within you as lights and shadows in pairs that cling.
And when the shadow fades and is no more,
the light that lingers becomes a shadow to another light.

And thus your freedom when it loses its fetters becomes itself the fetter of a greater freedom.

*taken from Chapter 14 of The Prophet by Khalil Gibran*

I've got the Thursday blues ...

I feel like crap today. Just one of those days when you get out of bed and feel like shite. I've got SO much to do today. Meetings, a gig later on at Harry's, and then entertaining a friend down from up North. Hmmmm .... feels like I'll have too much to do and not enough time to do it all. I'm missing someone really badly today. I need some good old TLC. Just decided that I won't be doing any travelling any time soon. Have SO much to sort out here at home.

Attitude is everything ....

It's going to be a damn long ride but what's a few months or a year compared to the rest of my life? I can make it through this because I know that after the storm, the sun must surely rise. And I will weather this storm with an army-strong attitude. And I will face the consequences and everything else with a positive front. For a while, I felt I was losing patience. Then I remembered the old saying about patience being a virtue. And I realised that patience is never more important, than when you're on the verge of losing it. And boy .... was I on the verge more than once. I've decided to be more aware of my mood-changes now (and they change ALL the time) and watch when my patience slips ..... because it will save me from saying or doing something that I most probably will regret.

Everthing comes to those who wait ....

For the kids, I believe that a loving atmosphere is SO important. I will do all I can to create a tranquil and harmonious environment for them, and myself. My love for them is unconditional, and though it may seem that they can do no wrong, I'll make sure that the wrongs are made into rights. And guide them down a path of honesty, love and happiness. And I will encourage them to ask questions and be as good a friend to them as I possibly can .... I'd rather them ask, than go astray.

My family is my rock ....

I believe that all things grow with LOVE. And that the most important relationship I can have, is the one with myself. For when I am at peace, and I am comfortable, and I am happy .... those closest to me, will be too. I won't be afraid of adversity. I'll surprise myself with what I can do, and the strength I have deep inside me. I know that's it's OK to come up against obstacles. I'll rise to whatever challenge is placed in front of me, and only then, will I know what I'm capable of.

It's time to get rid of this cloud on my silver-lining .....

Negative thoughts are truly a waste of precious energy. I will not ever undermine myself or sell myself short. It's hard enough trying to be happy .... nothing is ever as good or as bad as it may seem. If you think about it ... most of the things you worry about won't even matter in the long term. So just chill.

Worrying never changed anything ....

Let the battle begin ....

I'm feeling super tired today. Not that I did all that much. Went to the doctor's for a regular check-up. He says all is fine, like blood-pressure, etc. I'll get a run-down of the full results in a week or so. No sweat over that. I'm usually in pretty good health.

Had lunch with Mom after and tried to take care of some personal shit, but couldn't. Damn government offices. You'd think with all the technology they have, they'd be able to get things done and do a search through their systems without you having to provide them with hard copies of information right???? Wrong. For some reason, you still need your documents in hand before they believe you are who you say you are. IRONIC.

Well ... I started getting one of my infamous headaches again. Bordering on a migraine. Hands are still a little (sometimes, a lot) shaky. I refuse to go to a neurologist for that (as one friend suggested I should). I just think I was made that way. OK?

It's all this emotional stress. A girl can only take so much. But I'm trying not to let it get to me. What must happen ... will happen. What might happen ... I may have some control over. What will never happen .... just stop giving it power by worrying about it. Although I believe to some extent that all things are preordained, I also believe in the power of CHOICE.

I choose that my life will sort itself out in the very near future. I choose to surround myself with people that I can grow with. I choose that my future for my children and I will be so happy, so bright, and so full of opportunity, that the goodness in the cup of life will overfloweth and we'll will lead a life of contentment, peace and laughter.

I'm glad to say that things are on the move now. After months and months of procrastination, the stand-still state has ceased. I foresee that the cease-fire may not last for much longer and war will soon break out. I'm ready for the battle. My armour is on .... my guns are loaded .... BRING IT ON.

And whoever is standing by my side now .... I thank you. I'd just like to see who will be standing by my side once the battle is through. I have faith in my people. I know who will, and who won't, stand the test of time. Let's see if I'm right ....

I'm off to bed now .... *tummy grumbling from lack of food*

(and so Angel goes to bed starving ...... with a pounding headache)

I believe

• in friends who aren't afraid to hurt your feelings. No one needs yes-men.
• in love at first kiss. But I'd never tell a guy that!!!
• in turning off your mobile when you're with someone you love.
• I can succeed by getting support.
• I can be smart about what I eat.
• I can push myself further each day.
• that I can do things differently this time around.
• in the fact that I can make changes that will stick.
• in friends and family and love.
• I can prove myself to myself
• that I don't need anyone to validate me.
• in finding my idea of heaven.
• in reciprocation.
• in romance.
• that once you are down, there is nowhere to go but up.
• in me.

If You're Not The One

What can I say?? I'm a hopeless romantic and listening to this reminds me of someone very, very special and extremely and dangerously close to my heart. There are some cheesy lines in here, and very reminiscent of a boy band, but overall, I like it. Presenting Daniel Beddingfield ....



If you're not the one then why does my soul feel glad today?
If you're not the one then why does my hand fit yours this way?
If you are not mine then why does your heart return my call?
If you are not mine would I have the strength to stand at all?

I never know what the future brings
But I know you are here with me now
We'll make it through
And I hope you are the one I share my life with

I don't wanna run away but I can't take it, I don't understand
If I'm not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am?
Is there any way that I can stay in your arms?

If I don't need you then why am I crying on my bed?
If I don't need you then why does your name resound in my head?
If you're not for me then why does this distance maim my life?
If you're not for me then why do I dream of you as my wife?

I don't know why you're so far away
But I know that this much is true
We'll make it through
And I hope you are the one I share my life with
And I wish that you could be the one I die with
And I'm praying you're the one I build my home with
I hope I love you all my life

I don't wanna run away but I can't take it, I don't understand
If I'm not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am
Is there any way that I can stay in your arms?

'Cause I miss you, body and soul so strong that it takes my breath away
And I breathe you into my heart and pray for the strength to stand today
'Cause I love you, whether it's wrong or right
And though I can't be with you tonight
You know my heart is by your side

I don’t wanna run away but I can’t take it, I don’t understand
If I’m not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am
Is there any way that I can stay in your arms?

Feelin' HOT, HOT, HOT ....

Was reading an article in a men's magazine today about what makes a man "hot". They listed a bunch of stuff like cooking, rock-climbing, fishing, speaking a foreign language, playing a musical instrument and some other stuff which obviously imprinted such a great impression on me, that I can't even remember what they were!! But the fishing bit I just don't get. I love being out at sea and fishing once in a while ... but I, by far, think fishing is "hot". Let alone sexy. But I can see how some women would melt at the sight of a man, fighting with the life of the sea, just to validate some sort of manhood-ness.

Well, here's my take on how men rate on my "SEXYOMETER" .... in no particular order:

1. Cooking (The fact that a man CAN cook and is willing to cook for you is amazing.)
2. Speaking a foreign language (This too, is a PLUS, though not a necessity. Although I have to say, that I'm very partial to a man who can speak Spanish.)
3. Dancing (If a man has rhythm and can bop well to any beat, it's a sure sign that he'll be good in the sack!! ;) After all, it is all about being in sync.)
4. Extreme sports (There's something to be said about a man who's willing to put his life at some sort of risk. But not to a point where it borders on death ... that's just plain stupid.). The adrenaline of watching him alone will get your oestrogen levels rising ... and his testosterone levels way high!!
5. Intelligence (This is a complete turn-on. But please don't put "smart-asses" in this category)
6. Funny (I think a man who has a sense of humour and who doesn't take life TOO seriously is a great catch.)
7. Stability (As long as he can provide, and take you out to a fancy dinner once in a while, that should be enough.)
8. Attentive (Ok .... tall order, but it's possible. It's all about reciprocation .... it takes two hands to clap remember?).
9. Singing (Wouldn't you like to be serenaded by someone who can hold a tune?)
10. Successful (And I'm not just speaking about being good at his work. I'm referring to being successful in all aspects of his life.)
11. Romantic (What's life without a little romance, spontaneity and surprises? Takes a real creative soul to be able to keep things fresh. Forget about being stuck in a rut. Khallas.)

So ... that is my list of the Top Eleven Things Angel's SEXYOMETER. I'm sure there's more .... but it is 4am and my brain's not functioning at full-throttle. I actually know of people who possess every one of these characteristics (I'm lucky, I know). But that's just my mental checklist of the things I desire in a man. What's yours?

xxx

IF YOU LOVE SOMEBODY

THE ORIGINAL VERSION:
If you love somebody, set her free... If she comes back, she's yours. If she doesn't, she never was...

THE PESSIMIST VERSION:
If you love somebody, set her free... If she ever comes back, she's yours. If she doesn't, well, as expected, she never was.

THE OPTIMIST VERSION:
If you love somebody, set her free... Don't worry, she will come back.

THE SUSPICIOUS VERSION:
If you love somebody, set her free... If she ever comes back, ask her why.

THE IMPATIENT VERSION:
If you love somebody, set her free... If she doesn't come back within some time limit, forget her.

THE PATIENT VERSION:
If you love somebody, set her free... If she doesn't come back, continue to wait until she comes back.

THE PLAYFUL VERSION:
If you love somebody, set her free... If she comes back, and if you love her still, set her free again. Repeat.

THE LAWYER'S VERSION:
If you love somebody, set her free... Clause 1a of Paragraph 13a-1 in the second amendment of the Matrimonial Freedom Act clearly states that.

THE STATISTICIAN'S VERSION:
If you love somebody, set her free... If she loves you, the probability of her coming back is high... If she doesn't, your relationship was improbable anyway.

THE POSSESSIVE VERSION:
If you love somebody don't ever set her free.

THE MBA VERSION:
If you love somebody, set her free... instantaneously... and look for others simultaneously.

THE PSYCHOLOGIST'S VERSION:
If you love somebody, set her free... If she comes back, her super ego is dominant. If she doesn't come back, her id is supreme... If she doesn't go, she must be crazy.

THE FINANCE EXPERT VERSION:
If you love somebody, set her free... If she comes back, it’s time to look for fresh loans. If she doesn't, write her off as an asset gone bad.

THE MARKETING VERSION:
If you love somebody, set her free... If she comes back, she has brand loyalty... If she doesn't, reposition the brand in new markets.

May you have a fabulous week ahead!!! As for me ... it's time now for some serious soul searching .....

xxxx later gator ....

Think Ya Know It ALL???

I got this from H yesterday and thought it was hilarious!!! There are tons of these "use it or lose it" emails going around and I just love 'em because their factual. This is for those of you who just thought you knew everything.

Here's your refresher course...

The liquid inside young coconuts can be used as a substitute for blood plasma.

No piece of paper can be folded in half more than seven (7) times.

Donkeys kill more people annually than plane crashes.

You burn more calories sleeping than you do watching television.

Oak trees do not produce acorns until they are fifty (50) years of age or older.

The first product to have a bar code was Wrigley's gum.

The king of hearts is the only king without a mustache.

American Airlines saved $40,000 in 1987 by eliminating one (1) olive from each salad served in first-class.

Venus is the only planet that rotates clockwise.

Apples, not caffeine, are more efficient at waking you up in the morning.

Most dust particles in your house are made from dead skin.

The first owner of the Marlboro Company died of lung cancer. So did the first "Marlboro Man."

Walt Disney was afraid of mice.

Pearls melt in vinegar.

The three most valuable brand names on earth:

Marlboro, Coca Cola, and Budweiser, in that order.

It is possible to lead a cow upstairs... but not downstairs.

A duck's quack doesn't echo, and no one knows why.

Dentists have recommended that a toothbrush be kept at least six (6) feet away from a toilet to avoid airborne particles resulting from the flush.
(I keep my toothbrush in the living room now!)

And the best for last.....

Turtles can breathe through their butts.

Now you know everything there is to know. =)

Happy as a bunny ...

I managed to put up a slideshow of pictures, courtesy of ROCK YOU and I think it looks way cool. I'm so stoked!! Also added a couple of songs by Leigh Nash (Sixpence None the Richer) which I think are beautiful. Ocean Size Love & My Idea of Heaven. The lyrics are amazing and so I've decided to add the words of the former to this post. I'm sure you'll agree that they're amazing .... very romantic ... and speaks volumes.

I know what I'm doing may be dumb
I know I should not be staring at the sun
But the thought of you leads me to temptation
It's the same whatever side you're on

Separated we are delicate and small
And the space between, needs our attention
I see you right in front of me, as close as you can get
And I pray that you won't leave, this daydream yet

And it might seem much too far, to get back to where you are
But it's close enough, with an ocean size love
So if you can't reach out to me, send a sign across the sea
And I'll pick it up, with an ocean size love

I don't have to worry any more
If I really need you I'll go to the shore
And the thought of you there is my protection
I see you right in front of me, a vision in my head
And I know this is as real, as a daydream gets

And it might seem much too far, to get back to where you are
But it's close enough, with an ocean size love
So if you can't reach out to me, send a sign across the sea
And I'll pick it up, with an ocean size love

You make no sound, but I can hear you in the wind
I can see this never ends, like the sea, like you for me
And it's close enough, with an ocean size love
So if you can't reach out to me, send a sign across the sea
And I'll pick it up, with an ocean size love

And it might seem much too far, to get back to where you are
But it's close enough, with an ocean size love
So if you can't reach out to me, send a sign across the sea
And I'll pick it up, with an ocean size love

Sigh .... love swwwwweeeet love ....

Well, spent the night prowling the joints in CQ with a great girlfriend of mine. Managed to hook up with a bunch of random friends from different groups, or different friends from random groups (whichever way you wanna look at it) which was nice. Had so much that Yas and I lost track of time, and by the time we got to BN ... it was past 2am and another party had just begun cos the guys just got back from Phuket and headed straight to BN!!!! Talk about not being able to stay away!!! Wonder what'll happen when it closes ..... there'll be many lost souls ..... I'm sure we'll find a new hang out.

Thanks to Noel, once again, for making our day. You've got so much patience for a bunch a wild monkeys like us. Never did get to see you do the limbo, Mr. Boyd! Next time, we'll make sure to ply you with more booze. Then again .... your health comes first and it hasn't been too good of late. Will be brilliant once you get out of the nightlife industry. Can't be good for anyone's health.

Happy birthday again to Naresh!! I'm SURE you had one too many .... I have pictures to prove it babe!!! Will bluetooth 'em to you when I see you next. =) I love technology. I've just found out I'm technosexual .... ;)

Can't wait to see the pictures from the last week .... I suspect I might either smile, shudder or cringe .... or maybe all three ..... eek .....

later gator .... xxx

My blogging days....

OOooooooh ... I love this!! My blog is finally beginning to look like a blog!!! This is soooo much fun!! I still have tons to learn and am waiting for someone (a blog expert, by my standards) to come forward to help me out with some bits that I'm still not so sure about ....

Anyway, today was spent with the kids. Caught Shrek 3!!! At one of my favourite cinemas .... has to be GV Grand!! Next choice would've been Lido, of course. Flick was good. Better than Part 2.
Then came lunch. At the Japanese restaurant down on the ground floor. I must've eaten there like 5 times and I still dunno what it's called. Here's a picture of Jason slurpping up some yummy cold cha-soba noodles. Yummmmmm ......
Coffee, at none other than Coffee Bean & Tea Leaf. Rae just loves the Pure Chocolate drinks they have. And hey ... where better to go than the place where they know me by name????

And a lovely one of Nana and Baby J. Goodness .... think my son needs a haircut?? Looks like he's got a bowl on his head. Sorry baby boy .... =( Mommy will take you for one soon ok?? =)

And so .... my Friday night will be spent chillin' at home. Gotta be up at a quarter to six for radio. Wonder what I'm gonna talk about tomorrow. Hmm ... will decide then. And Mr. Monteiro, no brekkie for me. I'm on a serious no-carb diet and the stuff that you bring in is sooooooo good ... but sooooo sinful. Cheers mate!!!

xxxx

More mad pics from Bar None ...

I'm sure there are more of these to come (yes, Amjad, waiting for you to send the pics from your toy) ..... it was like the bloddy paparazzi last night!! Flashes going off, poses being struck .... it's funny, whip a camera out, douse everyone with a little (ok, a lot) of alcohol, and everyone becomes so chummy and sociable. Sigh .....

My love for kissing ....

Stumbled onto this picture online and thought it to be one of the sexiest pictures I've seen in a long time. As they say ... "A picture speaks a thousand words" .... and this one, surely does not disappoint. What I wouldn't give to be able to kiss so passionately like that ... guess it would help too if the man looked like that.=)

May your day be filled with lovin' and huggin' and lots of good, old fashioned, face-holding, hands-running-through-the-hair, hot, steamy, passionate, lustful, adoring and tender ..... kissing. You can take it further if you'd like .... but if you ask me, kissing is terribly under-rated and people don't do it half as much as they really should. Or half as well.

xxxx

Life is bitter sweet ...

Mr. Boyd and I ... at the end of another looooong night ...

With his colleague ... originally Bosnian, but now full-fledged KL-lite, Edina

My first blog since coming back from Dubai two days ago ...

I swear I should be a spokesperson for Bar None .... too late, I guess, now that they're closing in July. Oh well, here are some pictures from last night. Had to entertain some guests from KL. So after The Pump Room and BarFly, we headed to .... yeah, ok ... you know. Got to see their new after-hours band. Can't remember the name. But I remember that they just seemed to go on and on and on .... they played like, 3 songs in TWO hours. Bit draggy if you ask me. Only thing they had going was their front liner chick, whose voice could hardly be heard. But her tight pants and slinky gold top meant the guys really didn't mind. ;)

On a sadder note though .... found out yesterday morning that a friend of mine passed away. Kevin Corey Nonis was the drummer for local band, Heritage. I've known Corey for what must be 17 or 18 years now, since I was in school. Just last week, I was receiving emails and pictures from him about how happy he was that his band received an award at the Compass Awards night. He'd been begging me to be his date at the event but I had to turn him down because I was away. The last time I saw him was a couple of weeks ago when he bought me lunch at Spinelli's in town. He'd messaged after to say he's like to buy me dinner sometime after I got back from Dubai. Things were going well for him, with his drum clinics and work with the band looking to be his main activities. Despite the fact that he was battling the problem with his kidneys, he hardly ever showed what pain he was going through. Recently though, I remember him messaging practically everyday from the doctor's where he was for dialysis. How does a parent bear with the thought of outliving their children? My heart would break into a million and one little pieces .. and to say that I would be devastated and ripped apart, would be a major understatement. *shudder*

Who would've known?

Corey .... I'm so sorry I didn't get to say goodbye. I'm sure that you're at peace now and watching over all your friends, family, band mates, students .... and me. Know that I'm thinking of you and saying a little prayer.

xxx

THIS is a blast from the past ...

OMG .... I recieved this picture today from an ooooold friend on Facebook and ... OMG!!!! This was at the Raffles Hotel after the UWC Formal (that's their term for "prom night") waaayyyyy back ... maybe 16 years ago!!!!! That's Zoe Rickinson on the left (who was dating one of the Reis twins), Gaurab Banerji in the middle (whose picture you'll see on some of my older posts) and little ol' (well, young then) me!!!!! Check out the bangs and the corsage!!! Wow ... thanks Shazlan, for bringing back some good memories for me. My date then, was a Mr Patrick Grove, who's currently the CEO of Catcha Corp, responsible for the publishing of tons of magazines across Asia, including JUICE and Stuff. I remember it as being a great, great night. Lots of fun and lots of friendships built.

Am still in Dubai at the moment. My last day is tomorrow, before I leave a little after midnight. It'll be good to get back home as I have sooooo much to do. Got to get some serious projects on the roll. Can't sit on my ass for much longer as I've been procrastinating for way too long. I'm also going to be spending a lot of time with the kids as it's holidays. I'm planning trips to the Zoo, the Bird Park, the movies (Pirates of the Carribean, Fantastic 4 AND Shrek 3). All sequels so hopefully they're good), the Botanics for a picnic and possibly Sentosa. We'll see how much we can fit in.

Tonight will be spent watching the Champions League final between AC Milan and Liverpool. Hmmm ... this will be a toughie. The stats say Milan will win, but if history is anything to go by (and history always repeats itself), it may go the way of The Reds, much like 2005. If I've got my facts straight. I'm not a firm supporter for either team (or any team for that matter), but I am a fan of great soccer (the last World Cup final hardly qualified). And I hope to watch a kick-ass game tonight. Speaking of which, kick-off will be in approximately 1 hour. I have a few friends who have travelled up to Athens so maybe I'll get to see them on TV too!! Should be fun. Whoever it is you support, may your team play their best game ever. GOOD LUCK!!!

I'm going to walk to the fridge now and grab myself a bottle of Budweiser (only the best will do .. screw Tiger), sit myself down, light up a cigarette (or two) and enjoy the match the comfy couch ....

You have a great night ......

I still can't get over that picture!!!

Later gator .... mmmmmmmmmuuuuuuuuuaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!

I got this in an email from a friend and decided to add my own comments in orange. Hope u like it!!!

SEMINARS FOR MALES (prepared and presented by females)

1. Combating Stupidity (men mature slower than women. It's a FACT!)

2. You, Too, Can Do Housework (it's easy, just watch me)

3. PMS: Learn When to Keep Your Mouth Shut (I just get very ditzy, not moody, during this period)

4. How to Fill an Ice Tray (easy, take tray out of freezer, hold under tap till full, then place back)

5. We Do Not Want Sleazy Underthings for Christmas: Give us Money instead! (actually, I don't mind Sleazy Underthings .... as long as they fit)

6. Understanding the Female Response to Your Coming in Drunk at 4:00am (chances are, I'd be "crawling" in with you)

7. Wonderful Laundry Techniques (formerly titled "Don't Wash my Silks" ) (mouth shut on this one)

8. Parenting: No, It Doesn't End With Conception (touche my friend)

9. Get a Life: Learn to Cook (a lot of men know how to cook so it's very endearing)

10. How Not to Act Like an Asshole When You're Obviously Wrong (uh huh)

11. Spelling: Even You Can Get it Right (it's called "spellcheck")

12. Understanding Your Financial Incompetence (I'm just as incompetent, so we'll just live on love and fresh air. NOT!)

13. You: The Weaker Sex (YES!!!)

14. Reasons to Give Flowers (need there be one??)

15. How to Stay Awake After Sex -- Afterglow, Hold Me, Talk to Me (wake me when you're done)

16. Why it is Unacceptable to Relieve Yourself Anywhere but the Bathroom (when u gotta go, you gotta go. Just be discreet please.)

17. Garbage: Getting it to the Curb (or in the case of HDB dwellers, the chute)

18. You Can Fall Asleep Without IT If You Really Try (yeah, but I can't ... hee)

19. The Morning Dilemma-- If IT's awake: Take A Cold Shower (I'll help, ok?)

20. I'll Wear It If I Damn Well Please (hell yeah!!)

21. How to Put the Toilet Lid Down (formerly titled "No, It's Not a Bidet") (why is this even an issue? Ladies, how long does it take or hard is it to do it yourself?)

22. "The Weekend" and "Sports" are Not Synonyms (sometimes they are and I don't mind .... bring it on!!)

23. Give Me a Break: Why We Know Your Excuses are dumfounded (uh huh)

24. How to Go Shopping with Your Mate and Not Get Lost (uhm .... leave 'em at home!)

25. The Remote Control: Overcoming Your Dependency (yes, hand it over)

26. Romanticism: Ideas Other Than Sex (can't think of any =))

27. Helpful Postural Hints for Couch Potatoes (me guilty of this one too)

28. Mothers-in-law: They are People Too (and my Mom is GREAT!)

29. Male Bonding: Leaving Your Friends at Home (sometimes ... but hey, what's life without friends)

30. You, Too, Can Be a Designated Driver (yes, because I NEVER drink and drive)

31. Seeing the True You (formerly titled "No, You Don't Look Like Mel Gibson When Naked") (that's alright ... you do whatever it takes to affirm your existance ok?)

32. Changing Your Underwear: It Really Works (hygiene is soooo important)

33. The Attainable Goal: Omitting TITS From Your Vocabulary (and "ASSES" please)

34. Fluffing the Blankets After Flatulating is Not Necessary (uhm ... yesh it is!!)

35. Techniques of Calling Home (hint: Speed-dial. At least let us know you're alive)

36. Introductory Foreplay: The Drive Home Does Not Count. (why not??)

SEMINARS FOR FEMALES (prepared and presented by males)

1. Are You Ready to Leave?: Definition of the Word YES (hmmmm ...)

2. Appropriate Rhetorical Questions (formerly titled "Honey, Do I Look Fat?") (honesty is the BEST policy)

3. Elementary Map Reading (I am Queen of Directions)

4. Crying and Law Enforcement (huh?)

5. Advanced Math Seminar: Programming Your VCR (I'm extremely tech savvy so this doesn't apply to me)

6. You CAN Go Shopping for Less than 4 Hours (yes I can)

7. Gaining Five Pounds vs. The End of the World: A Study in Contrast (debatable)

8. The Seven-Outfit Week (planning ahead is always good)

9. PMS: It's YOUR Problem, Not Mine (formerly "It's Happened Monthly Since Puberty: Deal With It") (Look at answer #3 from the 1st set)

10. Driving I: Getting Past Automatic Transmissions (highly possible but auto is just soo much easier)

11. Driving II: The Meaning of Blinking Red Lights (I'm a VERY good driver, thank you. And I know the difference between red, amber and green)

12. Driving III: Approximating a Constant Speed (ditto)

13. Driving IV: Makeup and Driving: It's As Simple As Oil and Water (or cheese and chalk)

14. The EPL/UEFA/FA Cup: Not a Game: A Sacrament (sure ... I understand)

15. Telephone Translations (formerly titled "Me Too Equals I Love You") (yes, it's simple ... reciprocation)

16. How to Earn Your Own Money (Financial independance. Love it)

17. Gift-giving Fundamentals (formerly titled "Fabric Bad, Electronics Good") (I'm a great gift-giver ... and reciever)

18. Putting the Seat Down By Yourself: Potential Energy is on Your Side (uhm .. look at answer #21)

19. Know When to Say When: The Limits of Makeup (natural is best)

20. Beyond "Clean and Dirty": The Nuances of Wearable Laundry (clean. clean. clean)

21. We Forget Birthdays, You Forget Sports: LET'S LET IT DROP (hee ....)

22. MYOB: Proper Response to Other Couples' Public Arguments (must help the weak and the meek)

23. Yes, You Can Buy Condoms (formerly titled "WE learned to deal with the embarrassment") (how about tampons??? Now there's the test)

24. Joys of the Remote Control: Reaping the Benefits of 50+ Channels (wooohooooo!)

25. What Goes Around Comes Around: Why His Credit Card is Not a Toy (sure it is ... then again, I have my own)

26. The Penis: His Best Friend Can Be Yours Too (and it is ....)

27. His Poker Games: Deal Yourself Out (noooooo ......)

28. Commitment Schmittment (formerly titled "Wedlock Schmedlock") (totally agree ... it's so over-rated)

29. To Honor and Obey: Remembering the Small Print Above "I Do" (hint: pre-nuptuals)

30.. Why Your Mother Is Unwelcome In The House (HEY!!!)

31. Your Mate: Selfish Bastard, or Victimized Sensitive Man? (You decide)

Dubai is HOT, HOT, HOT. Thank goodness I'm indoors most of the time. Just heard some horrible news about a mini war that's broken out in the North of Lebanon, in Tripoli. About 27 of the Lebanese Military have been killed, so far, by the invading Palestinians. So sad. For a country that's so beautiful, it's seen so much turmoil. I was planning to head to Beirut on Tuesday to visit some friends but it seems I may have to postpone that trip till things calm donw. Though Beirut's not affected, for now, you never know when the shit might hit the fan. *continued on tuesday* ... now Beirut has been attacked with a car bomb that went off in a predominantly Muslim area. sigh ..... looks like I'll have to leave my trip till July. So sad. So so sad.

On to more pleasant subjects, was watching the FA Cup Finals the other day. Manchester United don their jersey's with their sponsor's name, AIG, on the front. Someone commented that it stands for "Almost in Greece" .... hahahahhahahahaha ...... this makes sense only to those who know their soccer. You one of em???

AND ... I've decided I may wanna go to the WWE when they come to town in July (oops .. hope it doesn't clash with my Lebnan trip). I'm not a fanatic, but I think it'll be BIG fun to watch grown men kick and smash the shit out of each other. SMACK-DOWN!!! Especially from ring-side. And I remember watching it LOADS with my brother when I was younger and we had tons of fun imitating the characters they had then .... the Undertaker, Stone Cold Steve Austin (he still around ... duh). Oh well ....

I don't like this blog .... why? Hmmm .... dunno ... but I'll post it anyway.

Headed to Fujeirah tomorrow. Gonna check out the scenic route. I hear it's beautiful. I've got to go see a client so it should be productive. If anything, I get to see another Emirate of the UAE.

Till later gator .... xxx

Random thoughts ....

Here's some random information ....

The first goal ever scored at the spanking new Wembley stadium in London, was by Didier Drogba (Chelsea), in the 26th minute of extra time, during the FA Cup Finals on the 19th of May 2007.

A super abundance of talent, skilled in the making of a gastronomic concoction, will instill a potable solution. What does that mean??? Ha ha .... it's a scientific way of saying .... Too Many Cooks Spoil the Soup!!!

Here's another ... One should hyperaesthetically exercise macroscopy upon that situs which one would tenant if one would propell towards the troposhere. Well? Any clues? Hmmm ... it means ... Look Before You Leap!!!! Good one huh??? Thank you, PK!!

Ok ... that's all for today .... more random information, or not, tomorrow. If I have the time.

xxx Later gator ...

The McCann's attend a vigil for Madeliene in Portugal
The beautiful Madeliene McCann

Missing since: 3rd May 2007

A video of missing Madeleine McCann will be broadcast during today's FA Cup Final to an estimated worldwide audience of half a billion people.

The video will be shown this afternoon at FA Cup final (3pm GMT). Madeleine's parents have repeated their firm belief that their daughter will be found.

The website set up to help trace the four year-old has now received 75 million hits. (Click on Madeliene's picture on the right)

The two-minute video features images of the missing four-year-old set to the soundtrack of the Simple Minds hit Don't You Forget About Me.

Players from both Manchester United and Chelsea have already made televised appeals for help.

Last night Kate and Gerry McCann attended an evening church service in Praia da Luz.
They stood together holding candles as they prayed for their daughter's return.

Mr and Mrs McCann were given the lights by girls from the village of Praia Da Luz, Portugal, where Madeleine was snatched more than two weeks ago.

Accompanied by friends and family, they stood quietly in the Church of Nossa Senhora Da Luz with villagers who again gathered in a show of unity with the family.

Mrs McCann wept quietly as a series of readings from the Life of Christ were read in Portuguese and English.

They included one passage from Luke's Gospel, in which Jesus goes missing as a child for three days before he is finally found in the temple.

Greetings from Dubai ....

So ... I'm here in the United Arab Emirates (of which there are 7 for those who don't know ...). After 5 weeks of being away, it is good to be back. Just woke up from a nice looooong sleep. Would've been longer if not for this damned jet-lag. It's 3.19pm back home and 11.19am here.

Though a four-hour difference doesn't seem like much, it does tend to whack your meal times out of balance. Speaking of which, I refuse to indulge in all the falafels and shawarmas and labneh and hommous. That would be guaranteed to just rest on my hips and tummy in a god-awful way. So I'm gonna go healthy and do salads ... as much as possible. Hmmm ... maybe I'll hit the gym. Maybe not. Maybe I'll just take a tip from my "exercise routine" I blogged about below.

This trip came up so spontaneously. I was called at 5.30pm on Friday (yesterday), and by 0030hrs ... I was on a plane. Talk about last minute!!! But I love it. Though Rachel wasn't too pleased. I usually have my trips planned at least a week in advance. But hey .... what's life without spontaneity huh? I'm usually a "planner" but I LOVE surprises too. Carpe Diem and all that. Seize the opportunity and the day for it'll never come around again.

It's good to be away right now actually. I think I was spiralling downwards for a while back home. With all the new-found freedom and partying and smoking, life was headed into the unknown. New friends, new places, new routine .... I really had no direction. Now might be a good time to reflect and sort my messy life out.

What will it come to? Who knows? But I'm going to be alright. Life has thrown me many a curve ball before and I've managed to pick my self up, brush off the dust and come back in full force ... with a whole new zest for life. I see that happening soon.

I'll stop here ... because I just thought of the Madeliene McCann case. I'm gonna go check and see what latest updates there are and I'll fill you in.

Last word ... here are the 7 Emirates that make up the UAE (I've listed them according to size) .... F.Y.I.:

Abu Dhabi (the largest of all the Emirates) -67,340 Sq. Km
Dubai (2nd largest, and probably the most well-known) - 3,900 Sq. Km
Sharjah (South of Dubai) - 2,600 Sq. Km
Ras Al Khaimah (also known as RAK, and the furthest North) - 1,700 Sq. Km
Fujairah (the only Emirate without a coastline on the Arabian Gulf) -1,300 Sq.Km.
Umm Al Qaiwain (2nd smallest) - 770 Sq. Km
Ajman (the tiniest of the lot) - 260 Sq. Km

Click http://www.sheikhmohammed.ae/english/history/history_emirates.asp to find out more.

xxx Later gator ....

GET SOME EXERCISE!!

Physical execise is good for you and I know I should do it daily. But my body doesn't want me to do too much and so I've worked out this program of strenuous activities that do not require physical exercise. You, my friend, are invited to use this program without any charge!!

1. Beating around the bush
2. Jumping to conclusions
3. Climbing the walls
4. Swallowing my pride
5. Passing the buck
6. Throwing my weight around
7. Dragging my heels
8. Pushing my luck
9. Making mountains out of molehills
10. Hitting the nail on the head
11. Wading through paperwork
12. Bending over backwards
13. Jumping on the bandwagon
14. Balancing the books
15. Running around in circles
16. Eating crow
17. Tooting my own horn
18. Climbing the ladder of success
19. Pulling out the stops
20. Adding fuel to the fire
21. Opening a can of worms
22. Putting my foot into my mouth
23. Starting the ball rolling
24. Going over the edge
25. Picking up the pieces

HAPPY EXERCISING!!!!!

When was the last time ......

I cried?
Hmmmm .. been a while, so that's a good thing. Though I teared at Spiderman 3 on Monday when "Goblin JR" died ... then again, even TV commercials and nature programs move me. But a good old bawling session ..... haven't had one in months. Think the last time was at church back in March or February. When my world seemed to come a-tumbling down on me. Sigh ....

I danced?
Hee... that would have to be last night

I had a drink?
Ooooohhh .... what time is it now??? 12 hours ago, I guess. At The Living Room on R&B night.

I said "I Love You"?
To my children, every day at every possible time. To my family, just not enough. To someone special ... hmmmmm ...... seems like forever.

someone said "I Love You"?
Look at the above entry. Pretty much the same answer.

I walked in the rain?
Oh ... I love getting caught in the rain! But every time it's been raining recently, I've been asleep (which is perfect too). So I can't remember when the last time was. *correction* The last time I got caught in the rain was the 10th of May (actually, the morning of the 11th) when I left The Living Room with some friends and it was pissing down cats, dogs and all sorts of other creatures!!! Had to walk to Lucky Plaza to get a cab and even then, no luck. Eventually called for one and had a nice journey home in the pouring rain. Ain't nothing better then the sound of rain hitting the windows.

I did something stupid?
Well .... depends on what your definition of "stupid" is ..... but this just came to me, the last time I did something stupid was when I decided to pick up smoking again after being nicotine-free for a whole ELEVEN months!!! Now I'm on to a pack and a half a day. Dammit.

I did something smart?
Everyday!!! I get out of bed and "with an iron-clad fist, I wake up to french-kiss the morning".

I worked for the money?
I guess everyone does this. But I LOVE what I do, so it NEVER feels like work.

I hugged someone?
I give my hugs freely and genuinely. But to be specific?? Hmm .... last night when saying 'hello' and goodbye' to friends. But to someone special? It's been a while.

I made wild passionate love?
Oooooh .... hmmmm ..... I don't kiss and tell and I can't tell you when for my own reasons. But wild passionate love is the only kind I make ..... though slow and gentle is my cup of tea too. Oh ... all love making is great when you're with the person you wanna be with and you're in sync.

I fell in love?
I sooooo wanna fall into deep, deep, deep love. I just wanna let go and pray that my emotional parachute will open and guarantee a safe landing. But falling in love is a gamble, isn't it? I haven't fallen in love in a long while. But I so want to. Yet at the same time, I'm afraid to. My heart is too fragile and the thought of it getting broken or me getting hurt is just too much to bear.

I went on a holiday?
The last time I travelled was last month to Dubai. But that was for work, though there was a little bit of play involved. But a full-on holiday? That would have to be last year, in June, to Rawa Island in Malaysia. I need another island getaway. I plan to take one in June. Maybe to Samui, Krabi or Bali. All of which I've NEVER been to before.

I got a tattoo?
Oh, that's easy .... January 29th 2007. My 33rd birthday. Got my third tattoo in Khao San, Bangkok. I'm contemplating getting another one. An intricate, delicate butterfly. But after last night, I may get another TWO. A butterfly and a baby dolphin. One on the inside of my right ankle .... and another .... hee ... for me to know. Maybe I'll get my tattoo done when I go on my holiday.

I blogged?
Are you kidding me?

I read someone else's blog?
Two minutes ago. Visited my lovely Tattooed friend's blog. Always such an interesting read.

I had a pet?
Wow. After my dog, Trixie, passed away more than 12 years ago, I've had a few dwarf hamsters, a rabbit named Bubbles, some fish. But no pet has come close to Trixie. She was with us for a good 13 years. I'm thinking of getting a cat though. They're so self-sufficient and independant.

I had a great meal?
I eat well everyday. But a nice romantic one-on-one meal? In Dubai, at a restaurant called Rodeo Grill, over a nice bottle of red wine. Sweet.

I slow danced?
Does anyone do that anymore??

I lied?
I never lie ..... ok, that's the last time I told a lie. ;)

Alright then. That's it. Now you know more about me. Has any of this changed your opinion of me? Well, I don't really care.

Thursday at Bar None/Living Room

Shah!!!! Where'd you disappear to?? Truly a blast from the damned past!!
Here's Noel and I ... again ....

Hey there PK!!

Flowers from Mira ... thank you darling! No, Gaurab ... they're NOT yours!!

UPDATE ON THE MADELEINE MCCANN ABDUCTION

(Left) Suspect: Sergey Malinka

(Right) Kidnapped: Madeleine McCann


Police in Portugal are probing computer links to the key suspect in the Madeleine McCann abduction case.

Last night they swooped on the home of IT expert Sergey Malinka, who designed a website for Briton Robert Murat.

Mr Murat, 33, lives just yards from the apartment complex in the village of Praia Da Luz where Madeline was kidnapped.

Plain clothes officers emerged from Mr Malinka's home carrying two hard drives, a laptop and a black bin bag full of items.

Russian Mr Malinka, 22, who lived in the town for around seven years, was driven to the local police HQ for questioning as a witness.

Mr Murat, who denies any part in four-year-old Madeleine's abduction, was questioned by police two nights ago before being released.

While he was being quizzed, officers searched his mother Jenny's villa.

Detectives have stressed they do not have enough evidence to charge or even formally arrest Mr Murat.

Last night's search happened just yards from the village church where the McCann family were holding a private prayer service.

It is now two weeks since Madeleine was snatched from her bed while her parents, Gerry and Kate McCann, were having dinner in nearby tapas bar.

Although there has been no news of her whereabouts the couple, both parents remain convinced she is still alive and plan to stay in Portugal for the foreseeable future.

The latest twist in the case came on the day relatives of the McCanns launched a fighting fund and website to pay for international efforts aimed at bringing Madeleine home safely.

Gordon Brown has met members of Madeleine's family and has pledged to help "in any way he can".

The child's aunt Philomena McCann told reporters afterwards the Chancellor had been "very helpful".

Ms McCann also met Deputy Prime Minister John Prescott and a number of other MPs. Many of them wore yellow ribbons in a gesture of support.

WATCH THIS SPACE FOR THE LATEST ON THIS CASE. I'LL KEEP YOU POSTED.

This is tooooo cooool. And soooooo true. I am amorous (a little too much sometimes), I am(definately) nocturnal (more so than before). As for being a Goddess, hmmm ... ask someone else. And I for sureup for an "exchange of lustful indulgence" AND "quality and unrestrained embraces" are the only kind of embraces I know.

If you want your own "sexy name" (I'm so sure you do) ... click on the link below.

Get Your Sexy Name

My One Night in Bangkok

This was my one drunkard night in Bangkok and I decided to get a tattoo .... on my 33rd BIRTHDAY!!! Enjoy the video!

Madeleine ... WHERE ARE YOU??????

This is Madeleine McCann. She just turned 4 on Saturday, May 12th. She's a beautiful little girl. I use the word "is" because I believe she is still with us. Now if you're wondering who this gorgeous girl is, and you've been out of touch with the news as of May the 3rd .... shame on you. Just for you, I've attached a list of the key events in the disappearance of Madeleine McCann on Thursday May 3 at the Ocean Club in Praia Da Luz.

May 3
- Kate and Gerry McCann leave their daughter Madeleine and her brother and sister, twins aged 2, in bed in their apartment while they have dinner at a nearby restaurant.
- Mrs McCann checks on them at 10pm and finds the bedroom window open and Madeleine gone. Police are alerted immediately.

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May 4
- Border police, the Spanish authorities and airports are notified. Volunteer teams continue to comb the village, resort and beach for clues.

May 5
- Detectives reveal they believe she was abducted

May 7
- Mrs McCann makes a personal plea to whoever is holding her daughter: "Please, please do not hurt her. Please do not scare her."

May 9
- Police examine a CCTV tape from a service station a few miles from Praia Da Luz, showing a woman with a girl fitting Madeleine's description.

May 10
- Police say in a press conference that the local search for Madeleine is being wound down. They issue an image of a pair of pyjamas identical to those Madeleine was wearing when she disappeared.

May 11
- A businessman, Stephen Winyard, offers a reward of £1m for information leading to the return of Madeleine.
- David Beckham makes a television appeal for information.

May 12
- Madeleine's fourth birthday.
- Donors including Sir Richard Branson bring the total amount of money now being offered in the search to more than £2.5m.

May 14
- Mr McCann says that "until there is concrete evidence to the contrary, we believe Madeleine is safe and is being looked after".
- The home of a British man, Robert Murat, which is 160 yards from where Madeleine was snatched, is searched by police. Police confirm he is a suspect.

My view ... to whichever sick bastard has taken this little girl ... GIVE HER BACK!!! She does NOT belong to you.

As a parent, how do you keep an eye on your children 24 hours a day, 7 days week, 365 days a year?? It's impossible. You try to give them everything they need, keep them safe and pray that no harm will come to them when you are not able to be physically present with them. When they cry, you hurt. When they cough, you get sick. When they're happy, you rejoice. Your children are a part of you. They are you.

Imagine when your little ones stray in the supermarket/department store/wherever else, and you panic during the moments when you're looking for them. And then you see their face round the corner, and though you want to scold them for wandering, you breathe a sigh of relief that they're safe with you once again. You heart rate goes back to normal.

Well, imagine what the McCann family must be going through. It's been 13 days since little Madeleine was taken from them, so suddenly. The worst part is not knowing how she is, or whether she still "is". I'm praying for her safe return and that they catch whichever sick pedophile is responsible for her disappearance. I believe that everyone has a reason to do what they do ...... I just can't possibly, for the life of me, imagine or comprehend what the abducter's reason is.

No quote for this ... just pray that she'll be returned safely, and in one piece, to her family.
xxx

Boys Boys Boys .... or are they men? Hmmm ... jury's still out on that.

At Trilogy, Madinat Jumeirah, Dubai.

(now these are MEN ...)

At The Living Room, Marriot Hotel.

Nick's 40th Bash @ Victoria Park.

At Pump Room, Clarke Quay.

At Bar None, Marriot Hotel.

Bar None .... AGAIN.

Sho Cho's, Dubai Marina Club.

Considering everyone in these pictures had a substantial amount of alcohol in their systems by the time the camera was whipped out .... I'd say we still look damn good for a bunch of alkies!!! And so darn happy too!! Hee ...

My quote for these pictures????? Hmmm ....

If drinking is interfering with your work, you're probably a heavy drinker.
If work is interfering with your drinking, you're probably an alcoholic.
(Noel .. that one was for you ... =0)

AND

If you know someone who tries to drown their sorrows,
you might tell them sorrows know how to swim.

Till I blog again .... later gator ..... xxxx

Hiccup .... hic .....

Sitting in the Gold studio now ... just finished my shift and had a SUPER YUMMEEEEE breakfast ... courtesy of Mr. Monteiro. Thanks Rod!!! The Eggs Benedict & Latte were to die for!! Especially since I'm still recovering from my mid-week binge drinking session/s and all night partying. OMG. I'm sooooo super tired.

Still thinking of whether I should drag my sorry ass to the gym. It's one of those "mind-is-willing-flesh-is-weak" kindda days. Maybe I'll take Rod's advice and get a sugar rush before heading in. Groan.

Tried to blog yesterday but something was wrong with the page. For some reason, it didn't have all the "extras", like the attachment and font functions. And I blogged (or at least tried to) about getting to the crossroads in one's life. I've saved it on my notepad, so I'll recover it when I get back. I think it was quite interesting so I hope you'll enjoy the read.

Mid-week was absolute madness!!!!! To say the least. Wednesday night started off with one of my best mates, Nadine, and I heading to Number 5. We had 2 drinks then popped into Rouge to say "hi" to Jon Molina, who I haven't seen in ages, and I've never been to Rouge before!! Yup! Last time I was there was it Papa Joe's was still occupying the spot. Boy ... it's changed. And it was dead town that night. So, no, we didn't stay and decided to head to Clarke Quay.

So many places to head to there!!! The Pump Room (fabulous band, only thing is you can't smoke there anymore *pout*), One Night Stand (Six in the City is amazing!! Great showmanship), Attica (Mikey & Caash are always great to catch up with). After a while, we got jaded with the place (also because the whole Quay was crawwwwwwwling with the Marines!! Groan ... at least the Shore Patrol was on the ball and their presence was greatly welcomed by guests and outlets). We wanted to listen to more bands, so we tried Harry's. Zul was on break and so to the 2nd floor we went, where 392 is. And watched a great American black band there. Thank goodness the Marines decided to give OT a miss this time round. I then finished the night off at Bar None (woohoo!). Always a place of comfort there. Ran into some great mates and partied the night away.

Anywayssssss ..... I've decided to go work my ass off ... will head to ze gym now. Hmmmm ... do I have to?????? Sigh ..... guess so ..... or can I save it till Monday??? Hmmm .... aiyoh ..... can't decide. MAybe I'll just go home and hang with the kids.

Later gator ... xxx

Extricating Good Manners ...

Alrighty then .... HEY!!! I'm still here. This is becoming VERY addictive. The need to write, share, publicise and just ... well .... BLOG. My how times have changed. 15 years ago, I was still jotting everything down in a diary, kept safely in my bedside drawer under lock and key. Still have all of them in fact. And I do go through them every now and then ... to reflect ... and learn.

Well .... here we go again ...

See the picture?? I thought it was so super funny that I just HAD to snap a shot with my 3.2MP mobile phone (yeah, we all know the one .... but now I WANT/NEED the 5MP one!!! I want I want I want!!!!). Enough about what I want. Let's move on to the picture.

How stupid do they think we are?? Then again, there are some people (yes, I know them) that will press both the up AND down buttons, in the hope that it'll make the elevator come quicker. Uhm ... I have yet to prove this theory. But still .... if you're in SUCH a big hurry ... take the stairs!!! A lot of people use the elevator to get up ONE floor!! What is up with that??? Ok ... this is beginning to sound a bit like what I blogged about yesterday, so let's not go there.

The MRT. Remember? One of my favourite modes of transport here for three main reasons: it's cheap, efficient and I get to people watch. Why is everyone always in such a big hurry??? Those yellow lines on the platforms don't do anything to keep boarding passengers in check. There's always this rush to get ON the train BEFORE people get OFF!! Groan ..... Ditto with lifts. If you're going to get INTO the elevator ... don't you think it makes sense to let the people who wanna get off, get off FIRST???

I usually don't toot my own horn but today ... I performed my good deed of the day. Actually, to me, it was just common decency. But to the society (ours especially), it's a bloody big deal! Ok, here was my good deed. You ready? Wait for it ....

I gave my seat up in the train for a mother with two kids and an infant!!

Absolutely no biggie whatsoever. What was a big deal (to me) was the fact that people looked at me as if I was insane to have given up my precious seat!! What was an even BIGGER deal (to me, again, but no one else seemed to care), was that the student (yes .... young, fit and able-bodied) that was seated next to me (before I gave the seat up the seat ... duh) .... didn't even BUDGE!!!! And as I mentioned .... this was a mother with THREE ... not one ... not two ... but THREE children in tow!! I know how annoying this can be because as a mother of two, I've been through this a million times. And I'm not exaggerating.

I was in an elevator once (this seems to be my favourite topic), with my newborn baby in the pram, with my daughter holding my hand. And as the doors opened, I was all ready to step out, when IN came charging (at least they tried to charge in) these middle-aged aunties (to any foreigner reading this, we call ALL older women "aunties". It's apparently a form of respect.)!!!! I immediately blocked the doorway and sternly said,"Excuse me????? Do you mind????" And they stared at me (you know the stare) like I was the one who was in the wrong!! Bloody hell.

That's our problem (not mine, per se). In this tiny city of ours, graciousness is sorely lacking. Chivalry is dead. And manners, non existant. The only way we've seemed to be able to keep this Red Dot in the condition that it is (all clean, green and efficient) ... is by educating the public as to what's right and wrong. If that doesn't work, a fine is duly imposed. And if it's still occurring, a law is passed and we BAN IT altogether. Hey ... whatever works right?? I am NOT slandering how the country is run. Or how we are put in our place. But how about, imposing some sort of common courtesy across the board??????

Actually ... this has nothing to do with the government. I think it all comes down to upbringing. Bring the child up right, and he/she will grow up to be one well-mannered adult. It's what good parenting is all about. In schools, you can teach a child what proper manners and courtesy are supposed to be. You can even teach them to keep their elbows off the table, which fork to use with which course, and that boys should ALWAYS, ALWAYS take their caps/beanies/headgear off at the table. But if these simple methods are NOT carried out at home, and the adults DON'T set a good example, then all those teachings will go to serious waste.

I was brought up in a home full of love, kindness and equality. Ok, it wasn't perfect and tantrums were thrown and tempers flared every now and then, but hey, every home has that. But courtesy didn't even need to be taught or imposed. Reminded of, maybe. But because it wasn't forced, and examples from the elders were set from young, it made the learning experience seamless .. and always present. And now, I'm not saying I'm the perfect example, but I still hold the door for people behind me (and hardly ever get a thank-you), allow others to alight the train/MRT/life/taxi, and I always mind my P's and Q's. Especially to the people that least get acknowledged. Like the cleaners at work. The bus/taxi drivers. Waiters/waitresses. Whoever. Sometimes even when they don't deserve it (maybe due to bad service. But that's a topic for another day).

Ok .. I've gone on for too long now and my shoulders are killing me ... time for bed. Till I blog again ...... but first ....

My Quote for the Day:

Nothing is ever lost by courtesy. It is the cheapest of the pleasures, costs nothing, and conveys much. It pleases him who gives and him who receives, and thus, like mercy, it is twice blessed.

Later gator .... xxx

What the ..... ?

OK .... my first day out after a massive weekend of drinking, smoking, sleep-deprivation and just plain old partying to kill this 33 year-old body of mine. Headed to the gym EARLY today .... not before having a lovely breakfast with a gorgeous friend.

Yummmmmyyyy ... sluuurrrp ... and oh yeah, the food was good too.*wink*

Back to my day .... starting this blog has seriously inspired me to observe more closely the environment, people, situations and happenings around me. And today!!?? Boy ... I could talk about tons of things that annoyed me.

Excuse me ... why are you here again??
For example .... I was at the gym which comprises of three floors, accessible by a winding staircase (great workout for the thighs and ass, by the way). And an elevator. Now ... why ANYONE would need to use the elevator at the gym, (unless you're terribly old, unfit or maybe, handicapped) just puzzles the bejeezus out of me. I see people who are fit as hell .... trainers even ... who make use of this elevator to get from level 1 to level 2!!!!! Now if you're going from the 1st to the 3rd ... it makes a little more sense .... but taking it from either 3rd or 1st to the middle floor???!!! I'm sorry but it just baffles me. Then again ... hmmmm ... I don't judge but it just fills me with curiosity.

Excuse me .... but MUST you?????
Next .... what is up with Singaporeans and their constant need to stare? And it's not done in the most discreet of ways. It's done openly (dropped jaws and all) .... in such an obscene obvious way too. I was on the LRT (yes, I do take public transport and travelling by train is one of my favourite modes) and noticed (not stared at) a woman seated in front of me. Plain by every standard ... in her 40s, plain black pants, striped buttoned-up shirt, short boy-cut hair, and black flat shoes (with socks, mind you). I think you get the picture. Anywho .... as I came in and sat in front off her .. she not only gave me the once over .... she gave me like a thrice over. She stared at my shoes, my pants, my watch, my bag, my hair ..... oh gawd .... I felt terribly naked. And no, she didn't look like a butch ... though she could've been ... hard to tell nowadays. Well, I thought it was just me she wanted to look at (not an ego boost at all cos being leered at like that ... is just discomforting). Then another lady came and plonked herself next to "this" woman ... and she did the same!!!! Save to say, the just-seated female got so uncomfortable that she promptly got up and changed seats. Next LRT stop, another woman sat next to her and yes, the "stare-er" did her thing and the "stare-ee" could feel her gawking that she subsequently turned and gave her the "if looks could kill" leer. Man. WELL DONE woman.

Where are your manners???????????? Hmmmm????
Now .... staring is just plain rude. Whether it's at someone who dresses different from you, or someone who's not as physically capable as you, or even someone behaving differently. Everyone has their reasons for doing what they do. How the hell do you know YOU'RE normal??? What makes you think YOU'RE of the "right-standard"?? There will always be someone who thinks otherwise. Whatever the case .... staring is just a huge "no-no". It's just common courtesy. Let people go about they're day without judgement. And you go about yours. Judging people by what they do, who they're with, how they look, how much they earn, where they work, what they eat is just something Singaporeans should learn NOT to do. We say we're a country filled with equality ... but just ride the train or monitor what's happening outside your little world (without giving everyone the eye-ball) ... and you'll see a city filled with a society that judges (unequally) .... openly ... without even saying a word. It's almost as if you can read their thoughts.

Oh well ... there's my 5 cents worth for today .... and here's my quote of the day ....

"Remember that the toes you step on today could be connected to the legs that hold up the ass that you have to kiss tomorrow".

Later gator ...

Day 3 (still) ... my babies ...

I know I said I'd carry on talking about my travels but since I seem to have done a lot of that today ..... let's pause for a cause ... and a good one mind you. I'd like to rave about my offspring ....

Offspring. Decendants. Young. Progeny. Babies. My two lovely, gorgeous Angels! Rachel Angelique and Jason Alexander. Almost 8 years ago, I was blessed with the birth of my first child. Rachel has grown up to be a very mature, precocious young lady. At the tender age of 8, she shows such great intelligence and I'm able to, literally, "hang out" with this girl of mine and chat and have a cuppa, just as I would with any mate. And Jason?? Oh my little man!!! He's the most gorgeous little heartbreaker who's such an extrovert. And not at all, unlike his sibling, camera shy. In fact, he's quite the little actor and at two and a half, has already earned his first pay-check as an extra in a short film. Wonder where he gets his love for entertainment from? Hmmm .....

I love children and for as long as I can remember, wanted to be a Mum. From wanting to be a pediatrician, to a teacher, to a vet, to a childcare specialist and even an animal handler at some point in my growing years ... I wanted any job that would keep me in close proximity to kids. If I had grown up never being able to have biological children, then I'd turn to adoption and have a child from every race possible. Hell ... I think Angelina Jolie took a leaf out of my personal childhood journal!! And if I couldn't have that, then at least give me some house pets or wild animals to tame!! It's that bloody thing they call "maternal instinct" ... the need to care for, love and take someone/thing under your wing and mould. Thank god for mothers.

And so ... here I am ... mother of two of the most amazing beings in the universe ... happy as a pea in a pod .... a caterpillar in it's coccoon .... an ostrich with it's head buried in the sand. This is where I consider home to be ... warm, comfortable, familiar and safe. My kids give me all that an more .... albiet the tantrums, mood swings and whinging .....

They are my life. My heart, body and soul. They give me the reason to wake up every morning and realise I'm still breathing. Because that means, I've been given another day to grow with them ... and watch them grow.

Now it's time to sort the rest of my messed-up, confused and lonely life out, and all will be fine and dandy .... I'm looking for that pot at the end of the rainbow (don't care if it's filled with gold/money/cars/luxury goods .... I want it to be filled with my dreams/hopes/love) .... and my silver lining under this heavy looming cloud that seems to be hovering over my head constantly .....

Quote of the day:

Love is like the sun coming out of the clouds and warming the soul.

Later gator ....

Day 3 .... 10 months later

Well well well ... lookie here. I am back. Good lord. Has it been 10 months since my last entry? It feels Waaaaaaaayyyyy longer. It's been so long that I didn't realise that Blogspot and Google have joined hands and now .... it's so much easier. It's been so long that I almost forgot how to post blogs and practically had to go through the motions of reading instructions and what not. Oh well, I'm here now so let's see how this goes .....

10 months. So much has happened during this lag period that I've had. I've travelled the world over and have thoroughly enjoyed myself. Most importantly, I've grown so much as a person that I've become much calmer, more serene and very much more staisfied and comfortable in my own skin. But let's talk about my travels ....

As luck would have it, I was given the amazing opportunity to work on a TV project that required me to cover 8 cities across Asia-Pacific. My first stop was Hong Kong. Wow. HK. So much went on there and if I even began to go into it, I'd never stop. So I won't. I'm of course referring to people I met and experiences I had. It's a case of once bitten, twice shy. But I put it all down to learning to go with my instincts and that my first impressions of people I meet, are usually right. It's hard though, because I've always, always worn my heart on my sleeve and my heart always rules over better judgement. From these experiences, I want to now begin my life over .... by listening to that little voice of logic and making sure that the voice of emotion, doesn't get the better of me. I'm a romantic though, with a heart of mush, so it'll be hard but I'm pulling up my walls of defence to help me. If not for anything else, to save myself from future heartbreak.

Ok ... I said I went to HK. But as you've just read, I didn't tell you much about the city itself but went into affairs of the heart. Hmmmm .... next stop, Manila. Ah ... the Philippines and the pinoy. Mabuhay. I actually quite enjoyed Manila because it gave me a break from the fast, fast paced life of HK and their tiny accomodations. HK was a far cry from the 5-star treatment we got at the InterConn in Makati. The people are a beautiful lot ... both with personality and looks. And with my pan-asian features, I had to pick up the lingo. Not so much to learn a new language, but to stop the questions of whether I was from there. As soon as I started conversing like them, the inquisitive questions ceased. But it was hard to shy away from stares and curiousity, as everywhere we went, I had two armed body-guards and an entourage of film crew. Exploring the city with a posse like that .... people getting asked to clear the path, traffic stopped, cameraman running after moi, make-up people messing with me in the middle of smog-filled Greenhills .... it was a little hard to remain discreet and try to blend-in. All in all, it was a lovely experience and I spent my nights alone in my Executive Suite, doing my nails, watching TV and ordering room service. And so it began .... no gym, rich foods, alcohol consumption .... my weight started to tip the scales.

Next stop ..... Beijing. What do I say about this city .... this forbidden city? It was almost like going back in time to the Yuan dynasty. A modern metropolis it may be ... Beijing's culture, food, philosophy, people, architecture .... makes you feel like you taken a step back into time. I certanily managed to brush up on my Mandarin skills, or lack thereof, while there. By now ... I was beginning to get super jaded of travelling, living out of a suitcase, airports, planes, hotel rooms, flying, immigration and one of my pet peeves .... customs.

And now ... off to Shanghai. Oh Shanghai. City of lights, billboards, colonial buildings towered over by modern glass structures, amazing nightlife, food and ...I could well go on. Staying at the Westin on the Bund (which is the promenade lining the Whampoa River), I had an amazing view of this bustling, super fast paced metro, which made me feel like I was in New York, Paris, London and Singapore, all at the same time. The nightlife took me to Mikey's club, Attica, at 15 on the Bund. Amazing. One night of partying turned to two nights (mind you, I was only there for 4 ... or was it 5?) ...... and needless to say, I was very, very sleep deprived. Oh ... did I tell you that when I was in HK (party central!!), I ran on 2 hours of sleep over a period of 48? Yes, I was working (I'm very good at what I do) but as hard as I work, I party even harder. Life's too short to miss out on the good stuff.

So by now ... I had covered 4 cities at one go, sat my ass on 7 aeroplanes, crossed 2 time zones, gone through smog, fog, heat, cold, altitude (some latitude), seen the worst traffic in Asia (Manila & Beijing take the award for this title) and eaten just about everything imaginable. Hmmm ... my jeans were beginning to feel a little snug. My suitcase was beginning to show the wear and tear of all that moving and my passport was beginning to run out of pages. And I? Well .... I was so tired ..... beat like a step-child ..... and my feet were begging me to get 'em out of all the boots and heels I had to wear for 16 hours a day. Khallas!!!!! Sorry .... that means "ENOUGH" in Arabic. Time to go home now .......

Geez ... looks like I've blogged enough for now. I still have 4 more cities to cover. Mumbai, Dehli, Bangkok and KL. Groan ...... at least I get to break for Christmas and New Year. Then it's .... in the words of Willie Nelson (c'mon, I work for Gold remember?) .... On the Road Again. Only this time, it's not a case of "I can't wait to get on the road again".

Ok .... till I next sit in front of my spanking new laptop and tell you all about my travels ...... be well my friend .....

Quote for the day:

It's not the destination, but the journey in life, that counts. Just as it not the number of breaths you take, but the number of times your breath is taken away.


Later gator ....

Day 2

Hey hey hey ... I am BACK!!!! Day 2. Well, today didn't start off so good. Was a late night, or should I say, early morning cos of the WORLD CUP finals. The match hardly lived up to the competition's standards and seemed more like a European C'ship. Blah is the word. At least the Italians won. Zizou used that head again ...... this time connecting it to the chest of one of the Azzuri!! Last game and all before retirement ..... what a way to go out ...... shame.

I'm so tired ..... sleep has been a rather rare commodity over the past week. Tired tired tired ..... both from the sleep-deprivation and the emotional roller-coaster I've been on.

I leave Wednesday morning and after the goings-on at home today .... hostility, raised voices .... frankly, I'm looking forward to it. More so today than before. Spent plenty of time with my Angels. Especially J. What a sweetheart. So innocent and dependent and I love it. That someone needs me so much and always has a smile and hug ready, is the most amazing feeling in the world. Unconditional and so unpretentious. And that look of pure joy in those eyes that have yet to learn and see how awful this world can be ..... hard to come by. Among the land of the babes, it's always there ...... among the land of the giants .... I've only come by one person who's as real as it gets.

I've learnt what's important ....... openess, truth, honesty and trust. And though I've always known that to be vital, I hardly ever (read:only when it suited me) put it into practice. And at times (read: almost always), even avoided it to save "face". But who am I kidding right? I've learnt that it's the only way to live. And if NOT doing that (obeserving the BIG 4) means I'd chance losing someone who's become a part of me, then I say "no, thank you". I'd rather work and become good at something than take the easy way out and lose someone who thinks I'm the world and let's me know it all the time.

It's so different/refreshing/heartwarming/amazing to have someone who puts my well-being/interests in front of theirs. I well-up just at the thought that that might not be forever. Aiyoh .... this is not a good time.

I will carry on though ... just not now. I've got a lot of thinking to do and when I'm done with that, I'll let you in on the conclusions I've come to. No more secrets. No more lies. No more hiding. No more running. No more being intimidated. No more fear. No more tears .... well, no promises there. I'd be lying if I said I could stop that .... and I did say no more lies.

Quote for the day:

When you love someone, all your saved-up wishes come out.

Later gator.

Day 1 ....

My first day/time on the blog. Hmmmm ...... trying this out mainly to satisfy my curiousity as to all the hoo-ha this "blogging" is getting. Suppose this could get rather addictive. Too soon to tell really. I'm what .... 3 sentences in? I've always enjoyed keeping a journal .... 'cept this time, it's for all to see, so a whole new ball game.

My friend Colette started one too .... she's at chuchulotta.blogspot.com ...... her blog's mainly about her beautiful bub Katie. I suspect mine might soon be about my two Angels. Who knows? I can do anything I like yes? Then I'm gonna .....

I'm out of the country in a few days ..... sooooooooo looking forward to getting away. It's been a while since I've travelled without the family (2003 was the last time) and honestly, it can be very liberating. No priorities like taking care of everyone else before me .... this time, it'll just be all about ME. I like that thought. Don't get me wrong though. I'll miss the Angels something bad but time away will provide a good balance. Away from the hum-drum of everyday life. More hummmmm than drummmm ........ later gator.

My quote for the day:

Making the decision to have a child, is momentous. It's to forever decide to have your heart go walking outside your body.

P/S: Isn't J the most GORGEOUS????